divine story

braced!

2006-10-03T00:46:00.000+08:00

actually,
it mean i got my braces done alr!

thats why its a HURRAY at my msn nick,
not because i am feeling awesome.

in fact,
i am feeling kind of...

hmmm,
not that good i have to say
although i should be happy.

its in conjunction with my PMS dude.
how to celebrate happily?

haha,
but darling mum said she'll whip up some delicious dishes
just for me,
and made my sis and cousins come for dinner tomorrow.

awww,
family is still the best thing i' ever had.

******

anyway,
back to my braces,
its not very pain
because i haven't done any extractions yet.

just put the braces before extraction.

actually, braces was a lot simple than what i thought it would be!

jus pasting the braces on your teeth la.
haha.

cool man.

i can't imagine i am having braces already!

but the metal,
so poky.

the dentist actually gave me the ulcer cream.
haha.

anyway, he said that the pain will start tomorrow.

sooo,
i guess not a very anticipating 3rd oct.

******

was chatting when we talk about this,
birthday song.

well,
i always have the urge to cry whenever people sing for me,
especially my family.

i am so emotional!
but i get emotional for good reason ok.

like so touched when everybody sing for you.
like you're getting all the warmth and attention!

muahaha,
although i am getting a birthday for myself tomorrow (sounds pathetic isn't it?)
i am still very touched that my mum is paying for it!

muahaha,
18th birthday,
the day which i've been dreaming of since like 8?

isfinally going to be here soon.

andthey say Nv3 Da4 Shi2 Ba1 Bian4,
i am anticipating about how i'll change!

muahaha.

******

yeah!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!

hurray!

let's do my favourite cheer!!

HU GA SHA GA HU GA SHA GA
HU GA SHA GA HU GA SHA GA

louder this time!!!

HU GA SHA GA HU GA SHA GA!
HU GA SHA GA HU GA SHA GA!

muahaha.
crazy girl.

but its my birthday!
3rd Oct!
my birthday!

my 18th birthday!

hurray!!

muahahaha~
happy birthday to me,
happy birthday to me,
happy birthday to Candy,
happy birthday to me!!!!

hee.
thank you (with a 90 deg bow)
to all my dearest friends and cousins
who stayed up (specially or just coincidentally)
just to wish my a Happy Birthday.

your effort will always be remembered by me!
and is so deeply appreciated.

i was smiling all the way while reading those sweet messages.

i am very touched.

THANK YOU!
love all you many many many.

:)

you people rock my world,
made me smile.

thank you!

muack muack muack.
*with saliva all aover your face.

******

Mademoiselle Candy : " HURRAY! " ; says:
wha lau

Mademoiselle Candy : " HURRAY! " ; says:
u very bad leh

Mademoiselle Candy : " HURRAY! " ; says:
LOOK AT THE TIME

Mademoiselle Candy : " HURRAY! " ; says:
WHAT R U SUPPOSE TO SAY

Mademoiselle Candy : " HURRAY! " ; says:
hahahahha!!!

[ palais des chantal] what lies in the future.we dont know. says:
OH YA

muahaha.
thats how thick my skin was.

heeheehee!
thank you my dearest wuiting!
haha!!

******

because of what you've done,
i find it hard to ignore you.

there're somethings that you should never say to a girl,
because well,
you'll make her world go Earthquake.

but still,
thank you.

i don't know why you do that for,
nevertheless,
i really appreciate that very much..

my reaction was more than a smile i guess.

******

i am going to sleep now!

birthday girl,
needs beauty sleep now.

happy 18th birthday to me.

actually, not yet,
i was born at 0606H.

muahaha.
love all you people.

pom pom pom

2006-10-02T00:35:00.000+08:00

guess whats that?

can you hear it?

what sound is that......?

POMPOM

POMPOM

POMPOM!!

hiak.
thats the beating of my heart~

muahahaha..
i am excited lah!

tomorrow is Monday can..
and what about Monday leh?

i've got a dental appointment tomorrow!!

hiakhiak.
hmm...
i wonder what will happen to me tomorrow..

sooo nervous.
bet i can't sleep tonight...

******

hmmm!

fashion faux pas:

WORSE!

my god!
is a fashion show can!

is that the new trend or what?
then c'mon on,
lets all not zip our dress this saturday babes.

my god man.
and the first pic,
that model so poor thing.

she stood in a very cool-but-awkward position
with her dress sliding down and down and down..
and she's so skinny.

no wonder the dress slides off so easily~

hiakhiakhiak..

anyway, this was captured by my lovely Lola
in front of Intercontinental Hotel.

and that male model,
we thought was Steven Lim.

so, thousands of apologies to the model
for the insulting assumption we had.

LOL..

******

apart from Friendster stalking,
we also provide the real business,
STALKING.

HIAK HIAK HIAK!!!

scared anot?

watch your back people,
Lola and me in action.

and we also love to capture your most ugliest moment.

classic!
(captured by CQL, not me, i am not that evil )

MUAHAHA.

but then,
because of my this hobby (haha!),
i've offended a lot of people.

and they are going to get back at me someday...

like this....

but thank God,
xin protected my Samsoon-look-alike tummy...

and in the end,
the ugliest part is.............

THUNDER LEG.

LOL.

sorry,
not LOL,
should be
LOS-laugh out softly
cus don't dare to let her hear it..

she'll kill me..
and eil..

cus she took this pic wan,
not me, not me..

******

after all the tortures of the ugly photos,
i'll give you a good and seriously LOL wan..

click on it to view it.

its a blogskin.

the title is call nO lOnGeR aI Ni..

i was browsing through the blogskins thumbnails
and came across this.

i can't imagine using this as my blog skin.

serious.

let's LOL together.

******

today,
is a good day.

i am having a good mood,
finally.

today,
is Children's Day!

reminds me about Pri Sch,
we'll alwasy go home with many many packets of candies, chocolates,
pencils, erasers, rulers, bookmarks, etc....

muahaha,
and then tomorrow is a Holiday for the kids.

damn shiok man.
now my house has so many small packets of tibits.
eg: CheeseRings.

hmm.
those were the days my friend.

******

i am going to cut my hair tomorrow!!

yeap, my bob.
and thinking to chop off my fringe too?

hmmmm..
seriously considering about it.

i am young man,
if i don't do it now,
when will i do it,
right?

but, Tue is my bday,
i don't wanna cry at every photo taken.

sigh, big trouble, small trouble.

hiak.

anyway, i think there'll be a lot of Monday Blues tomorrow.

babes: having school, muahaha.
sister: first day work after a two-weeks MC, even more muahaha

soo,
only me and the babies are having free time.

muahaha.

good day everyone :)

bonne nuit!
puits de sommeil :)

that fussy shopper

2006-09-29T19:01:00.000+08:00

guess who?

Elyn Yap.

thats her,
thats the fussy shopper.

the one i went shopping with yesterday,
the one who whine and groan whole day long,
the one who nags non-stop,
the one who needs a change,
yet unwilling to change,
the one who force me to think solutions for her fashion faux pas.

my god.
she must be complainning about me too!

haha!

HEY YOU,
you'd better change your partings alright,
or,
you don't come and see me!

lol.
had a good day out with her at town.
gosh,
she's so fussy about the clothes she's buying,
must a new one,
if not,
she'll refuse to buy it even though it was well, new.

LOL

went PepperLunch.

got the hardest meal of my life man.
the rice,
so crispy.

i'll love it if it was the Candy one week ago.
but now,
i feel so sorrowful~

muahaha.
anyway,
she was really good lah,
was actually planning to bring me go eat porridge
when we planned so much like Delifrance, Kobayashi all that..

poor her.
end up eating PepperLunch.
we were so compromising ok..

haha..

anyway,
went coffee bean-ing with her too.

her very usual.
coffee and cheesecake.

she's one very indecisive girl.
ice-cream or cheesecake?

so has got so many many things to think of,
to worry about.
ahh.
and now dragging me down intot hat deep pool of thoughts with her.

haha.

love her lah.
the way she always stupidly think so much about everything.
and the way she whine and whine and whine,
non-stop!

muahaha.

******

was feeling awful today!!!

especially when i log in to MSN.

sigh.
my suspicions,
never be unfold.

my questions,
killing me softly....

grr.

why are you doing this to me?

i don't even have the chance.

wait,
mayb i am thinking too much.

but well,
i was told.

i was told.
words to words.

from your mouth.

you must have thought nothing about it.
but i did.

i think about it all the time.

it couldn't have been such coincidence
thats manipulating us.

am i right?

it must be you behind all these.

am i right?

you asshole.
i hate you because u didn't even try.
you weren't almost here.

you weren't here at all.

fancy knocking on my door,
and running away upon my answering.

have fun doing that dude.

even though i can't nonchalantly say
i don't give a damn,
i can tell myself to forget that.

as for you,
since you don't have a word to say,
then i shall keep my silence.

its not like i've been given chance to do what i want anyway.

humph.

******

i am pretty ashame of my emotional side actually.
i don't why.

i only like to share my happiness,
not my sadness.

hack.
bet i am feeling awful because i haven't had anything since yesterday.

yucks.
porridge stall is closed.

mum bought nasi lemak!
my god.

i don't why she did that.
to tempt me perhaps.

and yup,
she suceeded then.

i am very tempted by the chicken wings and luncheon meat.
and the fragrance rice.

god,
i seriously felt that i did the braces at the wrong time..

look,
the nxt day would be my birthday.

how?
am i suppose to celebrate my birthady in agony?

tres traumatised with my decisions sometimes.

like,
i am always putting myself in the wrong position,
doing wrong things at wrong time,
saying wrong things all the time.

hiak,
now,
i am lost deep shit man.

i suddenly remember the porridge steamboat i saw at AMK.
and well,
if you ask me for a place to celebrate my birthday,
it would have to be there for sure.

i've been wanting to eat steamboat for so long.
but now,
the real steamboat is a waste of money for me.

grrr.

******

hiak,
searching for a blogskin now.

everyone has been begging me to change it!

gee.
why why why.

why on earth this is beautiful blogskin's html such a trouble?

that i have to change it.
hiak.

so i was thinking what i wanted.
hmm...

came across this blogskin of Paris Hilton.
my god.

maybe i should put it as my blogskin
if i am a bimbo-wannabe.

she's been known as the God of Bimbo.
producing an album by herself.
and buying it herself i guess..

haha!

and i guess no one will ask me to change my blogskin ever again
if i use hers,
because no one will ever view my blog again!

LOL

******

and then i went on to watch a view parts of Princess Hours.
hmm,
so far, so good.

my lil potato is really very noisy and
annoying.

i got to go now.
she's irritating me.
very much.

she wants to watch her 'pai...'
which she means
High Five.....

grrr.
shall shut her up..

and then the two princesses
fights over the TV,
Barney or High Five.

GRRR.
getting on my nerves eh?
testing my patience eh?

want to try my whipping?
MUAHAHA.

and we settled on Barney.
good.

anyway,
i happily forgotten about the blogskin.
so,
next time perhaps.

au revoir!

hungry man

2006-09-27T17:48:00.000+08:00

i am starving!!!

my god.
better serve me food before i start crying again.

but i really do feel like crying now.
its not that there wasn't any food in the kitchen.

thing is,
i can't eat.

i can't chew.

i don't want plain porridge.

and i had enough of the ice cream that was keeping my full
and nausea for the whole morning!

yucks.
i hate ice cream now.

i had so much of it.
because i can't chew!

hiak.
i really want to die man.
i cannot imagine life without the intake of FOOD.

i want something salty now.

was fine yesterday,
still happily eating stingray.

and god knows why.
woke up in the mid of the night
having aches allover my teeth!

i mean, gums?

hiak.
and then this morning,
cannot chew anymore.

dampens my mood man.

i cannot imagine life without eating.
i cannot survive.

in a war,
i'll be the first to surrender i swear..

i'll be the traitor.
betraying my country just for food.

whoa,
imagine its WWII,
i'll give them one piece of information
in return for a tray of sushi.

yummy.

and if sg has war with France (choy!)

i'll give them one piece of information
in return for their foie gras..

doubly yummy.

hahaha.
am i bad.
i am loyal ok.
PAP.

i am a Lee remember.

******

now that i have no mood to eat,
i don't feel like going out already.

jus feel like staying at home.

i can't imagine going Delifrance with Elyn tomorrow,
not eating my favourite salmon and croissant
and watching her eat.

that thought makes me shiver on fear man.

******

anyway,
today is a good day to slack around.

was tres satisfied with myself lah.
packed my desk,
changed my mattress (and my sis's too)

and

dumped away the sofies on my bed.

it was a finally.

i am sorry for doing that
but well,
holds no meaning to me anymore.

i don't such a big memory to remind me of the past yea?

and i waited so long before dumping it!
good grace man.

well its not dumped yet.
its in the living room.

waiting to be dumped.

hiak hiak.
memories,
are powerless.

so don't put them in your struggles.

those wannabes

2006-09-26T18:31:00.000+08:00

everyone is a wannabe themselves,
right?

everyone has got their own 'idol'
that they want to be like.

and i am sure,
there will be people around,
who'll want to be like us.

there may be xinzi-wannabe,
eileen-wannabe
ouyang-wannabe

and so on.

wannabes are people
who tries to be their idol.

they do what they did,
they talk the way their idols talked like,
they dance the way their idols danced like.

if you're an idol,
you'll love it.
but if you're not an idol,
it can be rather irritating,
to have someone doing whatever you did.

because you are not an idol-wannabe,
so you don't desire to have fans.
and so,
you will not be used to seeing people following what you did.

and you'll probably end up calling them names,
like copycat (very twitish)
when actually,
you should call them wannabe (which is not so twitish)

anyway,
you'll not be happy seeing people like that around you.

******

well,
lazy afternoon.

i am going to read my Lolita now.

by the way,
my inspiration to learn French,
comes from books that i've read.

like Lolita,
Blonde,
Shadows of the Wind...

so on.

not because of anything or anyone.
grrr.

dental visit

2006-09-26T17:06:00.000+08:00

was still as scary,
as when i was called down to the dental
in during my pri and sec school time.

my god.

and its a big big wrong to visit a dentist
when you are having peeling all around your mouth.

fucking wrong.
cus its really tearing my mouth apart!

gee.
was pain lah although that Eil lied to me that there shouldn't be any pain.

even the moulding was pain can
cus the dentist was unable to pull the mould out!

and all the while i was thinking will he end up pulling the whole jaw out.......

and he looks like he had a fight with my teeth
when putting the rubber band.

which people say its not pain..
LIARS.....

all bluff me wan.....
its so painful.........
and the band still refuse to go in......
you are all liars...

rememeber when we were discussing about my teeth at xin wang?
we were saying that my 90 deg crooked tooth
is a must-go.

and we were joking that imagine if it doesn't get extracted,
it'll have to be turned 90 deg?

and we were joking then.....

but to my horror..
the dentist actually said he won't be extracting it..
and he will be turning it 90 deg back.

*gasp.

but i am damn satisfied,
that i am doing it :)

mission failed

2006-09-26T12:50:00.000+08:00

damn it.
mission failed.

calls for a retreat.

damn it.
first time facing a failed stalking mission.

damn god damn it.
how could i fail.

damn it,
grrr.

restriction

2006-09-24T15:28:00.000+08:00

OUCH!

it hurts man.

fuck lah.
the skin surrounding my mouth is so pain.
its peeling!

so much for laughing at xin's peeling skin.

damn it.
now i can't shout,
i can't savour my curry rice with my big wide mouth.

ouch!
so pain man.

thanks to the creamS that doctor gave.
grrr.

but yet,
i am still enjoying so much food.

teeheehee.

i have practically nothing to do today,
so i am going to eat.

when i have nothing to do,
i eat.
and eat

and eat.

had 2 mango cakes,
and now gorging my curry rice.

yummy.

and i have my dessert ready.
durian roll i bought yesterday.

heh.
i am enjoying my Sunday eating.

******

my niece and her very own way of making friend:

she wants her to share the toys she was playing.
so she went up to her,
and said:

'i friend you?'

and the girl pleasantly replied:

'ok, i friend you.'

and they play the toys together.

this is a very well mannered niece i've got.

the other one,
that potato,
is one mobster.

she just went in between them,
and start playing the toys,
with that hack care attitude.

my god.

and then refuse to return people's toys after playing
when they were leaving.

wha lau.
what a gangster.

its in the blood man.

******

my god
i am so looking forward to the opening of St James Power Station this dec man!

gosh.
bet its gonna be double the fun than MOS.
its so big.

but fucking hell.
why only Powerhouse is 18 and above
and the rest is 21-23 age limit!!

this is so unfair.

i fuckingly happy when i turn 18,
and now,
this is demanding me to turn 21 soon.

or even 23.

damn.

anyway,
we're so gonna go this dec.

there are going to be so many rooms.
like 9?
not only like MOS
pathetically a few nia.

ok,
this is making me so curious and eager about it.

HabourFront 3 Sentosa Gateway.

hmm.
kinda far man.

******

and then i realise,
i've got so many things not done yet.

i have to change the mattress.

make it a point to change it after every attachment.
its damn germy lah i feel.

so got to change it.

then i have to pack my desk.

its not messy of course.
just that i need to dump away last sem's lecture notes.

although they are still damn new.

i have to re paint my nails.

all the sides chipped off cus of that rough Crocs.

then i have to eat my durian roll.

muahaha.

******

OH.

tonight is Singapore Idol final showdown!
prepared my $900 for this month just for tonight alright!

lol.
siao ah,

think Jon will marry me if i vote $900 worth of votes for him?

dream on lah dude.

anyway, must watch.
AND VOTE!

don't just watch for free.
and vote for the correct idol.

not that Hady ok.

its Jonathan Leong!

ok.
bye :)

holiday!

2006-09-24T00:42:00.000+08:00

after so long of watiting,
its finally here...

MY HOLIDAYS!

whao.
god damn happy lah!

went to 'celebrate' with elyn
and had Pastamania!

my god.
we're like some hungry ghost who make empty promises to each other.

LOL.

we promised to eat Shi Lin, Xin Wang, kobayashi, New York New York, Ding Tai Fung
so many more together..

which i highly doubt so..
thats why i call it empty promises.

LOL.

******

and today,
i sent away another babe from our Singles Club.

totally not cool about it man.

HEY YOU ATTACHED CLUB,
please stop grabbing my precious babes away can?

you already have got so many of our people,
and you're here for more.

evil attached club.
humph,
guess next year's Valentine's Day will be pathetically celebrated.

gee.
wait till our president (aka Emily/dog-shit-picker/unlucky)
finishes her exams.

hiak hiak,
and she'll be back to grab back our single girls.

LOL.
thats evil can,
like cursing them to break like that..

*erm
can i like send one resume to attached club?
your still recruiting members?*

******

i am so god damn sorry that
i had to take away all the beautiful photos on the link.

i didn't want it neither,
but i can't find the problem to the slow loading.

and i don't like complaints.
i am one perfectionist.

i hope it helps though.

please leave me a message if there is still slow loading.
i hate it man.

******

this holiday,
i am not going to waste it.

first and foremost,

MY BIRTHDAY.

its my grand 18th birthday.

the day when i can use my own IC
with my own beautiful photo on it!

my god,
i don't have to live with that black face of my sister's!!!

muahaha.
i wonder why others don't find 18th birthday a big one.

to me,
its extremely big.
and i can finally get my bike license.

god, its like so exciting.

lynn was suggesting that we go Eskibar first then go clubbing in the evning.

hello?
look who's the one being clubbious here!!
not me ok!

so, lynn the innocent-looking one is the real chiongster.

LOL..

alright,
back to the topic,
my birthday.

heh,
i don't know what to do yet
and how to celebrate it.

gosh,
its so exciting that it got me blank.

let's talk about it other day.

******

alright,
this holiday,
ia m going to get

(again, my anticipating but not gonna work list)

1) Braces!

yea i am finally gonna get my braces done!
thanks to Emily's friend's recommendation :)

2) License!

yea i am so finally gonna get my license.
but,

i serious have no idea about where to start.

gee.

3) Clubbing

(actually i am going to type Gym, but thats far too unrealistic i guess. OOPS.)

gee, as much as i want.
c'mon!
its holiday!

(wait a min, who am i goin with when everybody's schooling! GEE!!!)

4) EskiBar!

we're finally making our virgin trip there.
after like so many years, we're gonna satisfy our desire.

5) Shopping!

i am going to get dresses,
thats the theme for my birthday celebrations!

and lots of new cosmetics.

we can never have enough of it,
right girls?

6) i'll update.

muahha. i haven't think so much yet.

hiak hiak hiak.
i don't want disappointments,
so not expect anything yet.

******

HOW TO PASS YOU TELL ME?!

how how how?

damn,
this picture just goes to show how unrealistic my list was.

gosh.
i don't even understand what it says can.
like....

why so messy one.
why can't it be like just take one and for all.?!

just like my dad.

this is so unfair!

he says that he just took one practical
and got his license.

he was shocked that now,
its 8 practicals that i have to pass.

and he look totally hopelessly at me.

hello his Harley Davidson is waiting for me hor.
i must work hard man.

i can practise using his bike right!!

hahahaha!
i think he'll kill me
although he don't really treasure that bike.

and he ask me to get a scooter too.
he's all against racing bike.

he said that it was so tough to ride one
and that even he also can't stand.

gosh,
and he said it would be doubly hard for girl!
damn.

why am i a girl?!
i think i really need to train my muscle man.

you know many people are waiting to be my passenger.
first on the list,

Emily.

she doesn't know how to spell DEATH
or was it me who don't know how to spell DEATH?!

she is the infamous 'LUCKY BIRD'.

who in the world don't know that.
on average,
she kana bird shit 367 times per year.

(the 2 times extra are just on days when she kana twice.
nothing unusual about it.)

soo..
many i should consider giving Xinzi i ride instead.

hmm,
but on the second thought,
let's not.

new bike,
new tyers,
i don't want to puncture it.

although she don't mean too.

and i think she'll have problem sitting comfortably on my bike
cus my bike would be so short for her.

LOL.

lets just, ride myself lah.

wait till i get my license first.

muahaha.

******

ok,
ia m still thinking about where to go tomorrow.
my first day of holiday leh.

gosh.

should i slack at home
and dig my mose, fart all the way?

or should i dress up glamouriously
and step out of my maison?

geeeee.
this is totally bad for my health.

******

GGEEEE!

my god damn damn god.

stalking kills.

stop it candy lee.
stop what you're doing!

its worse than smoking ten packets of marl red per day!

*suck in a deep deep breathe gasping at the same time

i am gonna die on my computer desk right now.

*halètement!

my god damn god.

i am having an asthma attack now!!

gosh man.
stalking kills.

******

everyday, as long as one of our stalker gets online,
there will be juicy findings.

as i've said,
it'll be discussed.

example of what we do after we stalk:

iMjUStEiLeEn. says:
wah _______ boobs got so big meh

Mademoiselle Candy : " finally, its here, my holidays. " ; says:
CONFIRM IS PUSH UP WAN LOR

Mademoiselle Candy : " finally, its here, my holidays. " ; says:
BITCH!

Mademoiselle Candy : " finally, its here, my holidays. " ; says:
SLUT

Mademoiselle Candy : " finally, its here, my holidays. " ; says:
GRRR

hiak hiak.
when someone gets close to my eye candy.
very typical fit that i throw.

MUAHAHA.

am i evil or evil.

******

girls are like that ma.

we survive on gossips.

did hell lot today with Elyn.
and with Eileen.

(eh both same name! LOL)

not that we like to gossip,
just that we have to spill out
what we felt after hearing certain news or seen certain things or found out about certain news.

we can't keep feelings to ourselves.
neither can we keep what we've seen/hear/found out a secret.

i am sorry if you've stalked!
this shows you hold a certain significance to us.

you're not just a normal person whom we're ignorant of ur existence.

hiak hiak hiak.

******

ok,
i am off to read Cleo now.

bonne nuit :)

i must rest after the asthma attack.

*gasp gasp gasp.

trying too hard

2006-09-22T01:50:00.000+08:00

ok,
this is so 'trying too hard'.

when you finally reach home after a long day's work,
you need peace.

peace.

the least,
peace in my ears.

my god.
how can you imagine that noise that i've been putting up with.

grrr.

******

my god.
stalkers rule man.

******

i hate it when blog gives me problems.

like unable to view.

it gives me headache.

******

anyway,
just hope that my rashes will not come back anymore.

they were like playing a fool.
come as they like.

******

i don't know when i'll come out of my cave.
but when i do,
i'm gonna rock it all upside down.

i don't know why
when i don't go clubbing, shopping,
or just go out,
i feel damn lifeless.

and my sister often says that i think too much.
which is kind of true.

i didn't want that too.
i don't want to have that depression face neither.

and throw away that depressing mood too.
ruins my day.

and i wonder whether is it because of KKH's
hopelessness that made me depressed.
i mean,
hopeless.

there's entirely,
no even a nurse,
or patient.

and doctors are not even worth my mentioning.

and what's driving me crazy?
my desires.

ones which control my emotional being,
they, rule my planet.

******

and i hate people using laptops,
why come online
but permanently set to 'away'?

then what's the point of you logging in?

you suck.
i wish MSN don't have so many options.
'away', 'busy',

worse,

'appear offline'

thats totally crazy.

then WHY COME ONLINE?

stupid.
i mean, why log in?

damn it.

******

and temptatious Friday.
they're going clubbing.

totally jealous can.

wha lau.
curse and swear Smoove to be closed lo!

MUAHAHA.

i am evil.
but you're more evil to tempt me!

gee,
kill me.

have a nice day.
tripping over the steps,
rolling down the stairs,
walking into the drain,
smudging your mascra so much,
forgetting to bring your hp,
seeing your bag strap snapped,

so much for a nice day.
and god don't bless you.

thats what i do when i have bad mood.

i will not be that sweet trying-trying-to-be-good candy
wishing that you'll have a wonderful day
and drinking lots of water all that shit.

don't drink water.
die in thirst you stinky.

hiak hiak hiak.

fuck the Urticaria

2006-09-18T23:12:00.000+08:00

fuck fuck fuck.

i am feeling damn frustrated now.

and you think its great taking MC.

i would enjoy it if i am having fever or whatever shit.

but not Urticaria.
fuck lah.

i am having rashes ALL OVER my body,
and its itchy and pain.

i can't even walk without discomfort
as my thighs are so swollen cause of the allergic reaction.

i am in a fucking bad mood now.

feeling super upset by everything and everyone.

took one MC last Friday,
one tomorrow,
and there goes my weekends.

and i don't even dare to look at my skin.
its DEPRESSING!

just look at all the bumps and rashes.
i tell you,
its hell disgusting.

like a gigantic mosquito just gave you a kiss.
and left you with this really ultra big mosquito bite.

its like rotten lah.
i feel really upset about it.

went to see two doctors today.
went to the dematologist this afternoon for my pimples.
its free,
my mum's paying :)

and everybody look at me like i am a freak.
cus of the huge red patch i have from my chest up
to my neck.

and in my nursing uniform some more.
everybody must have thought i contacted some disease lah.

damn.
then went to my family doctor again at night.

its really damn uncomfortable.

WHY ME?

i swear i did not eat anything usually.
so why the allergic reaction?

sa la lah candy.
can you not anyhow react?
can you see and bsorb clearly first
before you make a big fuss out of it? (the bumps and rashes)

i had to wear a cardigan to the doctor.
how funny.
imagine walking to 85 in a cardigan.

its terrible lah.
itchy, hot and pain.

i am not gonna say much.
because i am tired today.
and i feel very upse with everything and everyone.

maybe not everything and everyone.

maybe.

dual tone

2006-09-17T18:13:00.000+08:00

hiak.

today is another sunday.
although i thought it would be a total mono mono tone sunday,
but it turned out not bad.

i've started eating again!
without vomiting (or i thought so)
and thats why my mood is great.

i had cornflake.
its a good food for PMS.

although i am not having one, yet.

and i've changed my blogskin.
this is so...
hmm.

nice.

attracts more horny bastard.

hah.

and i couldn't get rid of the blogger's NavBar.
the grey they call it silver one above.
and i feel so upset about it.

i am one perfectionist about things that i want to get done with.

ok,
so i'll still have to wake up darm early at five tomorrow
so as to be able to reach KKH by the strict seven.

its murderous yea.
five.

i'll be so dead.
and bored!

as i've said,
other than the kids,
i have no one else to accompany me.

kids kids,
i bet they missed me!

******

my bob!

its no more bobby!
damn angry lah.

its so difficult to maintain this bob of mine.

never mind,
when i get my money next month,
i'll go to a super expensive salon
and get it chop bob again.

a real good one.

******

i was rummaging through those photos in my folder.
and greatly reminded me of those happy days!

hiak.
miss you girls.

and i just realise that all we've been doing
recently was clubbing.

i mean, in the past,
we shop.

we shop!

but now, we hardly ever get together to shop.

like,
the last time i did my shopping,
was with xinzi and eil.

no one else was free!
and we sang!

god we use to sing so much!
like every other day.

and now, the last time we sing was..
like during xinzi's birthday?

god, that was years ago.

well,
i don't mean that we should stop clubbing.
i mean,

we should club more!!

since thats th eonly thing WE do now.

hiak hiak.

kidding.
i mean,
you know,
its a routine that WE shop before any school reopen.

so WE WILL shop next week.

how about that?

i want to desperately gather everyone!

think, how long have you not met say,
lynn?

decades.

how about ivy?

centuries.

and emily!
picking dog shits, still.

i really really miss those days.

i want to do more than clubbing.
and shopping.
and singing.
and slacking.
and eating.
and dining.

i want more of you girls in my life.

like how i wish we can spend everyday together!

and well,
this holiday,
we haven not met yet.

whee!
thats a really surprising fact.

i couldn't believe it myself too!

so you know,
shall we meet soon?

and i can measure how much each you had slimmed down
or better still, grow like me :)

******

i tell you,
Singapore is having a hurricane.

it blew my whole house upside down.

while my sister just nonchalantly
continue to watch Friends
and me, typing.

******

ok, my new blogskin.
its like a re-born
from the previous chaotic
and messed up but yet beautiful life.

this is suppose to signify a growth,
a change to modesty, mature, sassy
from those hectic and fun life.

cus i am like, 18 soon.

remember me tellng you that i would want to stay at 17 forever?

but time waits no man.
i am 18 next month!

i have to change that fun and zany 17th life.
and move on to a sassy 18th life.

which has yet to fully ripen.

although most agreed that the previous one
was more ME,
and looks nicer,

but i prefer this one now.

i am all over that phase of life already.

hiak hiak.
trying to sound grown up!

i do right.

and 'study my nudity desires'
so aww.

******

so,
gasp.

let it be your first reacton to my new skin.

my sinking sampang

2006-09-16T18:33:00.000+08:00

woke up feeling not very good,
was suppose to fetch my sister back from the hospital
but my parents left without me.

i am still sleeping when they left.

they were suppose to wake me up.

and there were so many irritating strange people today.

first,
my aunt.

she came to visit my sister.

and i was innocently watching the boring and
trying-too-hard-to-be-funny show on tv
and just before my aunt went home,

she came to me and asked
whether i am feeling moody.

i felt strange.
and looked at her with that
'huh' face.

and she replied it with a
'you look sad' sentence.

i felt sick.
like ?

humph.
i bet its my mum lah.
god knows whats he told her behind me
in the kitchen just now.

whispering in such a low low volume
that even the ants cant hear.

must be say things like
i am jealous of my sister
for the attention she's getting.

yea, that's true.
my aunt actually bought her bird nest!
my god.
my favourite bird nest.

but as if i am that childish.

hello?
i've since more patients with even more severe conditions
and i have shown much more concern towards them
and saw people giving them even more concerns to them.

what i am trying to say is,
i am a grown up now,
and yes maybe in the past
i'll be so mad from jealousy

but now,
no please,
i am a 18-to-be-in-a-few-days-time
young adult
and a prominent nurse-to-be
who has to deal with serious stuff.

aiyo.

actually, my whole extended family felt that i am not a happy person.
(they haven't saw my crazy side)

its not the first time some relative of mine ask me that.
and its neither the first time some relative of mine
told me that they thought i was sad.

i felt disgusted lah.
like i am so not used to answering to those questions!

how should i answer?
the more i say i am not sad the more they will feel that i am denying.

that left me with a funny face to answer them.

and that gave me even strangier replies.

BIG SIGH.

sometimes,
its not that i don't want to smile.

well well,
let my beautiful smile answer their queries.

happy?
LOL

******

next,
desperados.

'i'm a desperado,
underneath your window...'

that song just keep on ringing in my mind.

because i hate desperados.

like,
i think they should DIE.

don't even think of slitting your wrist with a penknife lah.

just think about get a chopper,
and chopping off your whole wrist.

it works.

in addition,
go up to your block,
(or your neighbouring block if your block is only until 4th storey)
and jump down.

together with that chopped off wrist.

ugh.
they really are a bunch of oxygen+food+resources wasting creatures.

that should,
as i've said,
just DIE.

why live and yet be so desperate?
you have a pair of eyes,
one nose, one mouth,
a face, moderate amount of hair,
four limbs,
all healthy,
not terminally illed,

why be so desperate?

i don't want to continue
but i just cannot stand it.

u want to know girls,
get them in a better way.

type: 'how to get girls'
in google search and press enter.

good luck.

either that,
or chop and jump.

thanks.

******

ok,
i am on this rocky sampang.

on this big big ocean.

and everything is so rocky,
making me feel so dizzy,
that i feel nausea.
and sick.

and i am going to row to the nearest island,
and get off that sampang,
as soon as possible.

i don't want to be caught up in the thunder storm,
which i know is going to hit the ocean soon.
and the lightnings,
the gigantic waves thats going to swallow me up.

so i am not going to stop,
i am going to row and row,
until i reach my island.

even if there is going to be human-eaters there,
i just want to get off the sampang.

i am worried sick.

******

ok,
i am off to watch my Da Chang Jin (again..)

just scolded my sis for taking off her arm sling.
and she's angry with me.

gee,
i am a nurse you know,
my job is to ensure a speedy recovery for my patient.

whats more she's my sister!!

poked

2006-09-16T00:32:00.000+08:00

ahhh.
long weekend for me.

hahaha.
got an MC today.

but i am really sick ok.
i didn't feign sick alright.

gee.
went to the bloody doctor.
yucks.
he sucks.

an indian.

so fierce.
like i was an ignorant kiddo
who got pregnant at the age of 15
and its right that he felt angry about
how ignorant i was.

but hello?
i am like,
sick ok?
give your pt some respect can.

and i really hate being sick.
what happen was that i've been having vomitting
like everytime after i eat.
and had fever yesterday to a degree of 39.1.

although it seems impossible for me to be sick,
(you know its said that cheerful people don't fall sick)
but i really did.

and no matter you believe or not,
i am sick.
to th extend that i couldn't get up from the bed at all.

i seriously hate being sick.

firstly,
i can't do my stunts.
i can't do my creepy Sadako's pupil-less eye stunt.

and thats actually how i always 'test' if i am sick.
it'll hurt a lot and gives intense haedaches
if i try to roll my eyes.

ha.
and that's exactly what i did on Thursday.

and next,
i can't control my tear glands.

they just keep in tearing.
its damn embarrassing lah.

everyone just thought i was crying.
but i wasn't.
and its irritating when you get your bed all wet.

and couldn't stop when i called ouyang.

and same
when me cousin and my bro-in-law came in.

damn embarrassing.

gee.

but i am still not feeling well.
because the doctor,
didn't get my actual diagnosis.

he,
don't know.

and he said,
strange.

so, i also don't know what to do.

he jus gave me the pills for vomitting and the gastric pain.

which was kind of of no use
cus i just vomit out my dinner.

waste my money~
my food wasted,
the doctor trip wasted,
the pokings wasted.

oh ya i got poked like twice.
stupid person.
think she got lao hua yan.

anyway,
i think i'll diagnose myself as acute constipation again.

i mean,
most probably.

******

whenever i visit the doctor,
they will definitely tell me
with very frustrated tone
that i should eat more fruits and vegetables.

please lah,
they are not divine food can.

even if you eat lots of vege and fruits,
you will also get ill wan ok.

don't be dumb can.

and whenever they say that,
i'll secretly give them a roll-eyes.

that killer roll-eyes
which i make sure they die on the spot twitching.

yucks.

go stuff yourselves with the fucking divine vege and fruits ok?
its holy divine hor.

you eat already will become ultra slim,
ultra strong,
ultra healthy.

ROLL EYES.

******

ok,
so its all about Hady and Jonathan now.

let the battle drum roll..................

PLEASE, I AM ON MY KNEES,
VOTE FOR JONATHAN LEONG!

only he has the honour for me to go on my knees.

so see how important he is to me.

if he didn't win sg idols,
i think yes,
i'll dump my nursing career
and sell my ass
just to set up a what music cmpany
and sign him on.

either that,
or,

i'll go to some respectable music company
and harass the CEO
rape him
or what
and force him to sign Jonathan.

you know i only want to rape people like Edison, Ah Zu, Jay, Beckham..

i don't anyhow rape just any guy.

so please,
what you can do just to spend that 60cents
to prevent this phenomenal chaos.

thanks.

******

uh oh.
my sis's admitted.

just how seldom my family will have any hospitalisation.

both paternal and maternal grandparents were gone already.

so its like,
we seldom have anyone being sick.
or sick enough to get hospitalised.

and my mum gathered just everybody in my huge family to visit her
when it was just a one day op.

haha.
and my sis also couldn't stop crying!

think its in the blood.

i shall be her little nurse for the timebeing.
oh i've alwasy been.
a nurse or her maid.

muahaha.
she'll be back tomorrow.
totally helpless i guess.

she is a pain intolerance.

ahh,
i see what i can do.

give her salty milo?
hehe.

******

i've decided to take up French.

although i haven't really completed my Jap,
i want to do French.

which my dad says i'll be able to communicate with half of the world then!

how cool is that..

inspired by Lolita.
cool and very french book.

with a lot of french words that is totally unknown to me.

so,
french, i am coming :)

******

ok, i wanted to name my camera.
the pinkish candy candy cam.

its an important decsiion
becus i am a perfectionist
and i do not allow any amendments at all
and it must be a perfect name.

and i want one thats not too long,
not too sad,
not too peaceful,
not too chim,

just a simple and fabulaous name.

thats tough.

can i name her candy?

*hello its been assumed that she's a girl becus
its pink.
i don't want a gay cam.

so,
after a long tough time,
i've decided,

i'll name her Lola.

LOLA-

a female given name, form of Charlotte or Dolores.

sounds so pink and sweet!!

gee.

super satisfied.
hope i'll not change it.

******

ok,
i am changing my blog skin.

everybody's changing!
just keep on tempting me to change too!

i think i want something more feminine.

this is as what syi says,
too step punk.

like so youngster
and kiddo.

i want something different.
something that reflects my very mature self!
(all proud)

eh i haven't got an idea of how i want it to be.

gee.
all these stupid thoughts are killing me crazy you know.

******

i am so boring.

thats the word!
boring.

so no-life.

somebody save me!

ok i am now binging on this super toothsome ice cream cake,
despite the fact that i've just vomitted about 2 hours ago.

i am totally not fit to be a patient can.

but i'll feel hungry after vomitting ma.

and sweet food is the only food that my body will not reject.
its true.
i didn't vomit out the kinder bueno this afternoon.

so lets hope i'll not vomit this delicious food later.

******

strangely,
tonight i am the only one online.

xinzi they all went for camp.

but where did the others gone?

i think lynn is soundly a sleep
(btw, she works in the ward my sis is admitted to!)

but the others?

hmm.
just when i am free to online,
no one else was.

gee.

ok,
i think thats long enough to receive complains.

LOL

bye bye!
take care.

stuff yourselves with vege and fruits
and be some holy divine shit.

old problem

2006-09-11T21:35:00.000+08:00

terrible.
i bombed the toilet for like zillion times today..
my god.

yea, my old friend
constipation
is back.

thanks huh god.
thanks for bringing it back.

and leaving me with only two bottles
of lactulose...!

heh,
but after drinking like so much of it,
it feels good.

but pat suffers the most.
she had to accompany me for all of my toilet trips!
muahaha.

******

should i?
or should i not?

this question has been filling all of my empty spaces in my mind.

should i?
or should i not?

i really don't know.
and the answer,
is a disaster to-be,
or a happiness to-be.

damn.
i am always stuck.

******

i know,
very well,
that tomorrow is going to be a damn boring day.

except for those funny children,
i have no one else.

why on earth am i grouped with people that i have never met before?

when all of my classmates were grouped together!

i am damn jealous can.
and its not going to be a one-day thing.

its hell two weeks.

and hell!
yea hell!

damn.
i think i made a real great impression in Doris
(manager who planned the time table and manager who caught me umpteen times.)

i don't know what can i do tomorrow..

gee.
and the day after..
the day after after..
the day after after after...

jesus.
no use.

******

why bloody hell cannot log in to MSN?

can you?
can you log in?

and i bloody hell have no problem using internet.

argh.
its making me sick.

******

i feel so yucks now.

yucks
yucks
yucks
yucks

fuck.

booboo.
you go away.
don't read on.
cus i am just crapping and letting out now.

then suddenly,
should i?
or should i not?

one last thing.

i want to be a doctor.

Rainday

2006-09-10T16:52:00.000+08:00

whoa.
its raining super heavily now!

so its not a Sunday today
but a Rainday.

ok,
i am lame.

let's do some stalking for the time being.
i don't want to lose this skill.

watch out!

******

yummy!

went to the Food Fair at Expo yesterday with my mum.

it was super crowded can..

it was.
crowded.

and the food was so-so.
i think because there were so many people,
the vendors just dilute the food.

the shark fin soup was so watery!
sigh.

and the oyster mee sua wasn't very nice too.

and was expensive.

this Mango Ice cost $4?
its so small.
and not sweet.

the mangoes were sour!

gosh.

but was nice.
because i like crowd.

i seriosuly do.

and guess who i saw?

WUITING!

she was selling erm, fried fish, prawns, fish ball.. etc.

cool.
and her voice..

'THESE ARE 4 FOR $2, THESE ARE 6 FOR $2, AND THESE ARE 2 FOR $1'

damn loud and bright.
cool.

i bet she must have repeated these words for more than a hundred times.

wanted to snap a pic of her very unglam look.
but was too crowded,
might drop my cam.
so let's forget about it.

its doing a good deed too.

LOL.

and beside her stall was a Thai Food stall.
think she went sa la stall le lah.

LOL

ok.
and i was very full although i didn't eat much.
erm,
maybe i did.

and i bought this super nice BANANA CHIPS!

this is super nice i tell you.

the word is super.

my bro-in-law bought this back from Malaysia previously
and i was searching for it since then.

was super nice lah.

and i bought 5 can of it.
so cheap some more!

like 6 for $10.

actually i wanted to buy 6 of it.
but my mum insist that she wants the Papaya Chips.

so gross right!
its worse eating papaya which resembles that of vomitus.
and she wants DRY VOMITUS!

yucks.

i almost puke when i tried it yesterday.

ya la,
my mum was so happy because there so many sampling of food.
so you dont need to buy
but get to eat.

muahahaha~

that's exactly how we got so full.

this was on the way there,
when we weren' full at all,
feeling all slim,
all happy.

******

alright.
tomorrow,
i'll be on my paediatrics attachment.

like~
sounds fun right?

there'll be a lot of children i guess.
like toddlers,
pre-schoolers,
even infants!

cool.
i think they'll love me!

muahaha.

it will be a two-weeks attachment.
kind of too long uh.

but nvm,
i've just bought my new Crocs.
its new baby!

muahaha.

its a fucking Made In China product lah!
i was so shocked to see this three words printed proudly at the sole.

like it cost a fucking $47.20
and its made in China?

gosh.
don't tell me its just the same as those pirated Crocs sold all along neighbourhood?

gee.
that sounds very bad.
yuck.

but for the ocst of it,
i'll try to think of the positive side :(

******

finally finish watching the entire Samsoon.

whoa.
gave me a very 'love love' feeling.
like those

'how i wish...'

thingy.

sigh.
let's go online shopping.
and banana chips binging.

the best present to get for me now is
a lifetime's suplpy of banana chips.

its cheap!
don't be stingy!

******

next indugence:

DKNY RED DELICIOUS WOMEN

its fabulous lah.
the fragrance is right.

delicious.

and the next men who comes to me wearing the
DNKY RED DELICIOUS MEN,
i make sure he die in my hand.

muahahaha~

frankly speaking,
i prefer the MEN's.
its very nice.

so mesmerising.

but i don't want to be caught wearing a men's fragrance.
so, leave it to my husband.

out this sep.
hmm.

i really can't spend money already lah.
sob.

right, Oct.

see you in Oct :)

killer heels

2006-09-09T01:37:00.000+08:00

wha~

the killer heels want my life sia.

i am having a terrible leg sore now.
and both of my 4th toe
is numbed.

like how terrible.
i felt so ~

ok, you'll probably be saying like
serve me right for wearing such scary heels
for clubbing.

but i have to repeat that
that was the only pair i have in my room.

which i was supposed to put it in a bag
and hang it at my window
where i'll take when i walk pass
without anyone realising it.

it wouldn't make sense to my mum
if i wear heels to a chalet~

so.

yea, i had to wear that.
and trouble everyone to take turns
to exchange shoes with me.

heh.
thats what friends are for right..!

******

yup.
went MOS again yesterday.

was.....
ok lah.

its the curse la.
we can only enjoy in the real Smoove.

gee.

i was stronger than i expected!
i didn't feel tired today at all.

heh.

but my legs were.
they were so weak man.

been such a long time since i exercised!
the bones and joints are aching,
the muscles are cramping.

wow,
totally undesired.

******

i am so afraid of death now.
i don't know why.

but i am sure i'll have a short life.
sigh.

i am so afraid.
my god.

i don't want to grow old.

and now i feel that sleeping is very time-wasting.

i only have got maybe
another 40 years?
or even 30.

and i am wasting precious seconds sleeping.
gosh.

:)

power of nurse lee

2006-09-07T01:54:00.000+08:00

jteeheehee.

this entry is gonna get me down to hell.

god is never gonna forgive me.

but that's the power of Nurse Lee.

today,
i did so many things.
feel super satisfied.

first,
I GAVE INJECTIONS!

like real injection on real patient!

really poking it into real flesh..!
gosh.

its like..
pain to me.

and the needle refused to go in no matter how i press it!
and the pt goes like

'ohhhhhhhhh.........!!!'

as i tried to poke it in..

grr.
so scary.
my god.

but fun lah!
hahaha!
fianlly get to jab pt!

and then next.
milo.

i make tasty and thick milo!
but sadly, today,
its about the ingredient.

i added salt instead of sugar to the milo.

then gave it to the pt who drank it without any suspicion.

god bless her tummy lah.

salty milo~
sounds nice!

i swear i didn't mean it.

in the cupboard got this huge container of sugar.
the sugar beads is really huge.

and the salt beside it looks more like normal sugar that my house use.

and..
i don't think they will have salt in the ward because its of no use.

and so i kind of confirm that its sugar.
and put it in milo~

in the end,
my friend took the salt for sitz bath.

then i realise,
yes, they do use salt in the ward-
for sitz bath.

and i secretly felt guilty about it.

i am so sorry, auntie.
i'll give you ultra thick and nice milo tomorrow :)

******

hmmm.
today is Wednesday already.

yea~
may be going MOS tomorrow after work.

i am still considering about it~
(although i know that i will end up going anyway,
the temptation is too huge to ignore.)

muahaha.

******

oh no.
i am so stressed about my
Nursing Care Plan.

gee.

and i think my feet are growing fungi already.

they are always soaked in water
and then left to dry in that damp shoes.

gosh.
i can't imagine fungi growing on them!
GEE!

thats really disgusting.
the mere thoguht of it already gave me goose-bumps.
imagine hreally having them~

YUCKS.

but its like really itchy now!
its not smelly ok!

just itchy.

and its double the itch if you scratch it.

argh~

Miss OUYANG

2006-09-05T21:10:00.000+08:00

THE OUYANG-WANNABE COMPETITION

SHE'S THE QUEEN!
SHE'S EVERY GIRL'S ENEMY!
SHE'S MISS CHINA!

SHE IS OUR OUYANG!

Ladies and Gentlemen, welcome to the

Annual Miss Universe Ouyang-Wannabe Competition!

The winner will walk away with a
3-years Contract with Miss Ouyang!

and you will be as real as Ouyang
after this 3 years.

Without further a do,
let's begin!

F1:

Miss Chantal
from Thailand

Sa Wa Di Cup!

F2:

Miss Xinzi
from India

Wem Ber Die.

F3:

Miss Candy
from Japan (teeheehee!)

Kon Ni Chi Wa!

F4:

Miss Eileen
from Eygpt

$%^&*#!

and the winner is.....

MISS XINZI FROM INDIA!

*applause

CONGRATULATION!
you've won a 3-years contract with Miss Ouyang.
Happy working!

you'll love her!

nusring

2006-09-05T18:43:00.000+08:00

i am feeling very f rustrated now.

like, very disgusted.

why do you go to work just to countdown?

WHY?

don't you feel sick doing that?

if you don't,
I DO.

and very much.

so please do not countdown in front of me,

or
worse,

force me to countdown with you
and celebrate
at every minute passed.

i am not that lazy,
irresponsible.

and yes,
i love nursing
so i want to be a nurse.

and i am not sick of nursing.

i will not do such silly things.

if you don't like going to the ward and work,
THEN DON'T.

quit nursing.
don't waste your time doing something that you don't like.

for three fugging years.
wasting your precious youth studying
what you call shit and nonsense.

serious, QUIT.

i am so annoyed.
like,
how many times have you repeated that

'YOU HAVE NOTHING TO DO'

when i am running around like a crazy girl.

and you can tail behind me and tell me
that you have absolutely nothing to do.

so tell me,
how am i suppose to reply you?

don't tell me you don't know that you are suppose to
FIND WORK FOR YOURSELF?

i mean.
c'mon,
we've heard enough of the lecturers, CI
telling us to take initiative,
be pro-active,
grab for opportunities,
find work for yourselves.

don't tell me you haven't heard enough?

gosh.
i am feeling very sick leh.

so traumatised.

******

apart form all that,
i am feeling good.

how bad can i feel right?
haha.

feeling happy actually because i felt that
i've finally found back the reason
why i joined Nursing at first.

its because I LOVE NURSE UNIFORM.

muahaha.
that's crazy.

well,
actually,
i don't have an exact reason for joining Nursing.
but its just a job that i know i'll never regret.

thought i was on the wrong track previously.

like,
i might be happier doing other things,
studying other subjects.

but then agaun,
everytime after attachment,
i will feel all fine again.

like actually,
i am on the good right track.

heh.

******

my god.
yesterday was so fun!

i found him~
my jonathan!

muahahaha!
don't doubt it.

its him,
Jonathan the Second!

my god.
i really feel like dotting the mole on his chin!

its him lah!
Jonathan Leong!

my god.
traumatised.

know who is he a not?
BRANDON.

but he has gotten rid of that name already.
now he is officially called Jonathan Leong.

thanks to me :)

and i sickeningly, insanely, crazily
took many stalked photos of him!
MUAHAHAHA!

and lastly,
the mesmerising Jonathan Leong~

******

yesterday was so funny lah!

we went to 85 for dinner.
guess what happened?

XINZI BOOOOO-ED HER POKKA GREEN TEA
STRAIGHT INTO DANTE AND JONATHAN LAH!

muahahah!
it goes like this...

xinzi was innocently drinking her green tea,
when some bodoh said something that triggers
her hysterical laughter

and 'something' flew across the table,
which my camera wasn't fast enough
to capture it in time....

as you can see,
jonathan and dante was trying to avoid it,
but still....

they were too late.
i mean, xin was too fast...

the green tea kana allover their body..

poor jonathan~

(xin was choking after the laughter....)

and nobody dared to sit in front of xin
EVER AGAIN.

even if they dare to,
its atleast 2m away..........

xuan rong,
one lucky bird.
the only survivor~

and she is still drinking~

attempting to give the 'guilty' look!
YOU MERLION!

poor dante and jonathan..

so,
just a gentle reminder,
do not sit in front of xinzi during meal time.

god bless ~~you~~ us.

******

alright.
tomorrow is another morning shift.

shit.
been continuously late for two days already!

this is so terrible~

but i can't help it :(

was trying to be early today.

the stupid bangla said it would only take 25 mins from bedok reservoir to KKH.
so i estimated about 1 hour from my house.

in the end...........

it turned out to be

1 hour and 25 mins.

thanks whoever that bangla is.
thanks.

when i walk in,
the whole ward was taking report.
and all turned to look at me.

how embarrassing!

grrr.

well,
i MUST be early tomorrow.

i mean,
on time.

hehheh.
enjoy your holidays.

it won't be long before you're back in school again :)

oh, take care!
drink more plain water,
and eat more..

don't forget your holiday assignments!

shaking my ass

2006-09-03T02:03:00.000+08:00

alright, stop that.
stop trying to imagine me shaking me ass now.
get that image out of your mind..

whoa.
i am feeling superb now.
like,
having 10 orgasm at the same time.
(thats like too much heaven, i'll die)

guess why..
c'mon,
make a guess.

no, no hunk pick me.
no, edison did not rape me.
no, i don't weigh 40kg.

nah nah nah.
ALL WRONG.

introducing my new pride:

SONY CYBERSHOT T10

gosh.
this is so fantastic.

i want it,
and i got it.

the pink one.

the first person that comes to your mind
when you saw that pink cam is who?
obviously,
candy.

its so me right.
muahaha.
so as sweet as me.

:)

anyway,
i am feeling super happy.
i miss having a camera sooo much.
and i finally have one,

that is really mine.

well i hope my sister will not insist on sharing it with me.

i think she hates pink right?
yea.

hopefully she'll find pink so bimbo
and puke at the sight of it.

and feels it too act cute,
big no-no for her classy-wannabe style.

so...

wish me all the best.

have yet to contact her
cus apparently,
her hp is off-ed due to low batt
and she hasn't been home for the past two days.

so out of contct.

gee.

but that will marks the start of another 12 months bill.

yup,
its true that i have not learnt from my previous experience
and yup,
instalment is still my best friend.

instalment loves me.
i love instalment too.

and hopefully,
one day some bank will start this shop-by-instalment scheme.

whereby i can pay my month's overall shopping spenditure by instalment.

how cool is that?
if there is,
i'll definitely be the first to sign it.

hehheh.
anyway,
i am super good mood lah.
and yeah,
i also have the free memory card!

its like,

WOW!

******

hurray!
finally met up with wh and val yesterday.

super miss them.
we've been so apart.
like been months.

we went kbox(as usual)
and then went to Clarke Quay
where we started our Jourey to the Beach.

a long and adventurous one..

we walked so much.
and i was wearing my Gripz heels.
like killing me..

but i survived!

we ran across the highway.
climbed over the barriers.

we were so adventurous.
and with my heels some more.

we had so many choices:

MOS,
Crazy Elephant,
Asylum,
Attica,
Momo,
Cube,

and

H.O.M.E beach bar.

yup.
thats our last destination.

like finally....
all our legs burning in pain.

muahaha.
but it was nice
because we had the time to get close again during the 'trip'

as well as able to spot the 'ai-mei'
(we know who....)

and H.O.M.E was nice.
really.

super comfy chair to lie down.
and nice soothing environment.

i think so far,
its the number one chill out place
i would recommend.

its nice.
but it closes at 2am.
which was far too early..

hehheh.

oops.

i forgot to mention that ql was there too.
let's give his presence some respect.

:)

******

hmmm.
just got to know that i'll not be with my animals
during my KKH attachment next week.

to think that
i was happily thinking that we'll have a fun time this attachment.

gee.

feel so cheated!
different ward!

but luckily same shift as pat and syidah (?).

yucks.
sucks lah.
and my damn bleached uniform.

i think i'll be going there naked.

or do they prefer me in my boxers?

yucks

and my shoes!
it has got a fucking big hole!

and went to parkway today,
intended to buy this Crocs'
black shoe.

its wonderfully waterproof!

other than Melissa's,
this is the second shoe that i know
that is waterproof inside out.

its totally black.
but looks ugly.
you know..
Crocs..

but its waterproof.
you know why i want it waterproof?

tsk tsk tsk.
you people don't know how much we had to suffer.

you know the feeling of wearing soaking wet socks
and soaking wet shoes
for the whole day?

worse,
letting it dry by it self.

you know how much does it stinks?

you know how much we'll be boycotted at home?

gosh.
and we can't let our shoes inside the house.

tsk tsk tsk.
terrible.

and when i tried to bathe the patients without shoes and socks,
i am risking myself from:

1) being scolded terribly

2) getting infected

because we are not allowed to do so.
if there's any unknown cuts on our feet,
and they patients have got some unknown infectious disease,

we'll be infected unknowingly.

isn't that dangerous?

so,
respect us.

oh ya,
back to the story.

was about to buy it when...
i found out that the whole Singapore don't have it in size X.

(i am not tellig you what size was it
because i am fugging sad that my feet grew.)

like argh.

******

tomorrow is mahjong.
wish me good luck.

lost a fucking $40+ tot the three of them last time.
thinking back,
i suspect of some illegal deals.

humph.

lose to me your briefs tomorrow!

muahahahaha.

******

ok,
i think iam abnormal.

girls have Pre-menstrual Syndrome.

i've Post-Menstrual Syndrome.

which was as bad.
or even worse.

because you thought that whoa,
your bad days of the months are finally over.

in the end,
its only the starting.

gee.
i am not going emo-emo today.

just that the thought of a going-to-be-boring-week-ahead
irk me.

very bad.
i know i am not going to have anything much to look forward to.

its like
everybody is going to be busy with their own stuff.
and i'll be the same Candy going around,
begging everyone to go out with me.

this is so bad.
a bad idea.

and that requires a lot of energy.
which i would have given to my patients then.

so i'll be stuck in this boredom for the rest of the month.

and my brithday...
so near,
yet so far~

gee.

happy playing :)
happy holidaying :)
happy missing me :)
happy missing me and my energy :)
happy missing me and my cheerful spirit :)

tsk tsk tsk.
thats not the way i should be.
disgusting emo-emo~

sho sadzz.

NO NO!

hiakhiakhiak.

hu ga sha ga hu ga sha ga~

lets sing this victory song again to boost our spirit!

HU GA SHA GA HU GA SHA GA!

rainy days no more.

2006-08-31T15:55:00.000+08:00

it was raining all the way since yesterday isn't it?

i feel real bad.
i hate it.
i seriously hate raining now.

was in the control station toilet yesterday
re-applying my whitening moisturiser
when a huge crowd of secondary school girls came in.

they were smelly,
dirty
and worse of all,

WET.

they were awfully soaked in rain water.
and well,
i guess they just had a fun rain fight.

its soooo secondary school.

my god.
so yesterday.
no, so the-day-before-yesterday.

i mean its been a long while since we left secondary right?

i used to enjoy rainy days in school.
especially after school.

we will be playing around,
walking in the rain,
thinking it was so fun and brave of us.

get ourselves drenched like a chicken.
exposing our plain white colour bras,
still having fun.

kicking puddles of water at each other,
getting our school shoes really soaked.

those were the days, my friend.

but now,
its a totally different story.

we sickeningly hate rainy days.
and feel like killing ourselves for not bringing an umbrella.

we had to crowd together with other people under the tiny shelter,
avoiding the rain at all cost.

we had to run across the non-shelter areas
with anything big enough to cover our face.

i was so afraid to end up with
pathetically smudged eyeliner and mascara.

whats worse?
wearing your beautiful fake eyelashes.
and seeing it drop out,
due to the rain.

LOL

and running across the road,
just to avoid the rain,
and letting a hunk sees you running.

i'lll wish that a car would bang me down.

so,
rain,
big no-no.

******

The Bottom Line

Learning how to make the best of a bad situation isn't fun, but it is invaluable.

In Detail

You already know that life isn't perfect, but a recent wave of positive energy might be making you think differently. Be positive and take advantage of the good luck that's coming your way, but be prepared to compromise as well. This good fortune won't last forever. Learning how to make the best of a bad situation isn't much fun, but it is invaluable. Problems around the house could require an unexpected cash crunch soon -- pare down your luxuries so it won't sting as much.

this is fuckingly eerie.
because,
its damn true.

isn't it scary?
something can actually tell you what you're going through.

like you go to the forture teller
and he can say all
all about you.

thats fucking creepy.

******

i am feeling damn upset now.
because i just went grocery shopping.

and spent a fucking $66.

just NUTC.
not some shopping mall.

argh.

i feel so- 'what to do..'

i have been spending so much recently.
and now,
i am in need of cash.

******

just downloaded a few Jay's new songs.

not very impressive.

i guess he don't have much inspiration
now that i refuse to answer his calls.

well.
too bad if he missed me.

he's so busy preparing for this new album
and his new movie,
it has been months since he last came Singapore.

so i did my usuals.

and that results in his bad performance
and bad composing.

too bad!!!

muahahaha~

******

i went for yet another hair cut just now.

cool.
its so hard to maintain.

i was just complaining this morning to my sister,
that my hair is out of Aeon Flux shape already.

Eil and Dante said that my hair grew really fast.
and its only like 2 weeks since i last cut it.

now,
need to trim it again.

but its nice lah.
so i don't mind spending money
that keeps me happy
looking into the mirror :)

******

good grace!

Which is the Sexiest Part of Woman?

- 23% of men says legs
- 23% say eyes
- 21% say boobs
- 16% say bum
- 10% say shoulders and lips
- 7% say tummy, skin and hair

this is a damn fucking lucky piece of news for me.

meaning 21% + 16% of men will find me sexy.

muahaha~

oh ya,
girls, you should really stop wasting money and effort for the Pedicures.
(just when i was about to get it)

because..

64% of men don't even notice.
its like,
so disappointing!

use the pedicures money to buy yourselves real good eyeliner
or fake lashes,
you got to use the eyes now.

if you want to know more,
get yourself the Sep issue of Herworld.
its gonna worth your money.

******

alright,
counting down.

today is Thursday,
just 3 more days
and i'll be stuck in KKH with my patients already.

so cry for me.

i am off to read Herworld now!
its damn late this month.
i mean, i am late.

stay pretty and hunky.

surrender that chocolate!!
move your butt away from that comfy sofa!

start a life you people.

not that i have much.
lol.

sushi des

2006-08-28T22:09:00.000+08:00

yum yum
yum yum
yum yum

yum yum yum!

sushi.
YUMMY

jealous right?
i finally had my sushi brunch.

feeling super satisfied.

its been long long time since i had free flow of sushi.

but i am feeling guilty lah.
because i was suppose to accompany my sister for her check up
at CGH.
but i couldn't wake up!

was busy squeezing blackheads last night.
so....
slept late.

haha.
then only join them for sushi.

tsk tsk.
bad candy.

anyway,
she's going for a surgery for her shoulder joint on 15th.
gee.

good luck.
hope her surgeon is damn good-looking.

******

Ghost Game.

watch it yesterday with xin and xinjia.
cool.
wasn't really damn scary lah.
but was one of the best Thailand Horror movie.
haha.

WHAT TO DO:

1) if you heard strange noises:

do not attempt to check it out.
act like you didn't hear it.

2) if the door creaks open by itself:

do not attempt to close it back,
or even go near it,
act like it was open all along.

3) if the ghost chase after you:

do not fall down,
if you do, act fainted.

4) if you're all alone in the dark:

do not attempt to escape by yourself,
act faint/dead and lie down.
do not move even if the ghost comes to you.

5) if the ghost appears right in front of you:

act faint.

however, if you want to see ghost,
do all the above.

and you'll sure see them.

LOL.

my conclusion is,
just act fainted.

shut your eyes and do not move!
i mean, thats what i'll do lah.

and its pretty reasonable right.
better than you run.

c'mon, ghost flies.
they do not run.

so just act faint!
thats the best.

like if a murderer wants to strangle you to death,
just act dead.
its the best.

BE CLEVERER!
thats what i'll teach my children in future.

******

here's what you should reply,
if a person criticise you.

'____ is the new in, what do you know?'

i was simply traumatised (yes again)
when xinjia told me that yesterday.

we were talking about boobs
and she was wearing this revealing top.
and she said

'flat is the new in.'

i was dumbfounded.
had a roller coaster ride.

and finally got back to the present.

and i replied,

'well, fat is the new in.'

cool.
this is a good phrase to use isn't it?

you can say

'skinny is the new in.'
'chubby is the new in.'
'flat is the new in.'
'thunder thigh is the n ew in.'
'saggy boob is the new in.'
'single eyelid is the new in.'
'tummy is the new in.'
'unique is the new in.'

so many.

just remember:

'____ is the new in.'

*wink

******

yea yea.

tomorrow will be singing!
well will be going town to grab this dress with eil first.

i really feel damn poor.
there're so many things to buy
but so little money.

how to survive?

******

why do i always feel that guys who approach me
have some hidden motive?

gosh.
do i have some phobia toward guys or what?

thats saddening.
i'll show no interest or anything.

and i always have that roll-eyes reaction when talking to guys.
like whatever they say,
i'll be 'eyes-rolling'.

maybe,
i am really a lesbian.
xinzi, you be careful.
don't be alone with me now that i've realise my true identity.

gee.

******

yea!

i'll be wearing my beautiful corset this wednesday.
totally looking forwrd to it.

but it sounds scary.
meaning i can't eat for the whole day.

or the corset will 'PLUCK!'
so i'd better control my diet now or
i won't be able to fitin on wed..........

******

my god.
i really can't stand emo-pics.

have you seen them before?
its like.
so twit.

but all of the secondary sudents are doing it!

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

you open Friendster,
view the recently updated photos,
and you'll be flodded by emo-pics.

its like,
those pics that you do not look into the camera,
took half of your face,
or you watching elsewhere,
and all the crappy emo emo things.

ugh.
i cannot take it.
are they shy or what?

LOL

alright,
they will get over this thing.

i am confident about it.
because i was once,
one of them.

but i grew up already.
so many they will.
when they graduate from Secondary,
the school of emo-beings.

*shivel..

******

me and my grand daddy.

elyn .music is desire. says:
hey

elyn .music is desire. says:
u noe wad is leekwanyew christian name?

candy - you again; says:
?

candy - you again; says:
erm

candy - you again; says:
i forgot

candy - you again; says:
i dn use to cal my granddad by his name.

i guess most of have gotten used to me and my grand daddy's thingy.

:)

******

aiyo.
i am so sian.

going to dye my hair now.

hehheh.

watch out for my new colour!

enjoy your day.

oh ya i miss mahjong!

no wuiting, no mahjong!
wt, we need you so much!

guess we'll just open a table at the void deck.

zapped!

2006-08-27T04:03:00.000+08:00

wheeee!!

i am feeling super satisfied now.

after months of starvation,
i've finally let it out,
and zap my card
out of the way~

happy happy happy.

went shopping today, that is.
hurray!

you jealous?
c'mon, say you're.
especially after hearing what i've bought~

Sarah Jessica Parker's Lovely perfume-
been aimming at it since 2 months ago.

what a super relieve.

Topshop's Corset-
its my perfect size,
my perfect figure,
perfet price,

its simply perfect.

been aimming for it since months lo!
finally bought one.

then some other things like
belt,
beaded necklace,
boxers,
and
skirt!

muahaha.
don't ask me how much i've spent.

i don't wish to know too,
so i never use cash.
its too heart threnching to part with the money.

******

and we went to eat Xin Wang at Cineleisure.
nice~

super full.

THE DIE DIE MUST TRY:

peanut butter toast

mango snow ice-kachang lookalike

you die also must try.

its damn shiok when you put it in your mouth.
damn it.
make you produce noisy like
'WOOO..'
'AWWW....'

yea!
so its as good as a good orgasm.
like you haven't had one for 10 years.

imagine that.

******

then we went for Love Wracked.
was a good nice romance lah.
one that you'll want to happen to you.

but too drama,
like you know it'll never happen to you.

very prone to get into the in-love mood after that.

very movie.

******

WANNABE CULTURE

cool. you heard that?
wannabe.

you wanna be a wannabe?
just wanna be one is already a wannabe.

fulfil your dreams by being a wannabe.

you wanna be a dancer?
be a dancer wannabe.

you wanna be a bimbo?
be a bimbo wannabe.

you can even be a wannabe wannabe.

please visit:
Wannabe at Heeren's level 2.

be a real wannabe.

******

ok,
i am damn lame.

but well,
a wannabe shop!!

can you imagine how cool!

i bet the shop owner is a wannabe too!
LOL

******

introducing the Chanel's new model:

mauhaha.

if you're jealous,
don't be.

not everyone can be as lucky as me
to be signed by Chanel.

hehheh.
now that i've taken this picture under Chanel,
if you take it agin,
you'll be officially a copycat!

copycat,
don't take this!
muahaha.
if not you'll not be Chanel's original model alrady,
cus i am!

ok, cus me, eil and xin are!

muahahaha.

its not easy to take this you know.
must catch a midnight movie,
climb up,
stand or kneel,
with passerby watching,

and then finally 'click'.

not easy.
but we did it.

thanks!

******

stalkers-so easy yet so hard.

muahaha.
we're a bunch of silly girls.

we're stalkers wannabe.

it seems impossible with our limited resources.
but nowadays,
with Friendster successfully taking over more than half of the population,

its much possible.

teeheehee.

be careful,
or you'll be our next target.

but of course we don't anyhow waste our time.

you have to be:

handsome,
cute,
pretty,
connected to someone described above,
mentioned during random gossips,
once connected to someone mentioned during random gossips,
said to be pretty,
said to be handsome,
said to be cute,

so and so.

as long as we set our hearts to stalk about you,
WE WILL.

and we'll find out all about you,
in the shortest time,
fastest route,
easiest way.

muahaha.

and when we found out about you,
we will announce it,
discuss about it,
find out more,
and discuss again.

that's how we work.

if, you make us angry,
unhappy,
sad,
disgusted,

you are going to suffer our deadly curses.

just for no reason.
muahaha..

so don't offend us,
be connected with our eye candies,

or,

be stalked,
and cursed,
and talked about.

our team works fast oh.
don't look down on us.
we've got so many broadband's desktop working
connection at the fastest speed,
we're sure to work.

give us a name,
a friend's name,
and results will be out the next day :)

maybe even minutes.

hehhehheh.

******

my god.

guess who i saw today?

her.
its her.

luci something.

my god.

she was soo lucky
that i'm over everything already.

if not,
i'll be chasing her a few streets of Orchard road.

hehheh.
no lah.
you think i commiting suicide?

wearing so leng leng
with nice make ups on
want to run like mad woman
for all the hunks to see?

no no no.
i am going to be live long.

muahahaha.

ok lah,
not bad.
eil said she was not bad.

so-so only lah.
nothing much.

LOL.

******

our new Goal:

we're going to club once a week.

LET ME HEAR YOU ROAR.

muahaha.
just a little decision among us.

how nice can that be.
we're going to be the ones pushing people aside on the dancefloor
using our mighty butts
on Ladies' Night.

we will, babes.

******

notice something different?

you must.
if not you're blind.

i've got a new mole!!
ooh la la~

the first one was Hideaki-lookalike mole.
now,
is Jonathan-lookalike mole.

teeheehee.

******

i am not tired.
i wonder why do they force me to sleep just because its 3:54am now-
time for sleep.

but i ought to sleep now.

so good night!
dream of your eye candy today alright.

samsoon the second

2006-08-24T23:54:00.000+08:00

ok.

now i am on my way to watch Kim Sam Soon
and just randomly came here to blog.

why?

because i am tres traumatised.

by my lovely sister.

she's so funny.
and insulting.
and caring i must say.

my god.
she's like,
so worried that i'll be the only one left on the shelf,
and she's frantically finding a guy for me.

my god.

apparently,
her friend's brother is one year younger than me,
single and likely available.

and they just you know,
thought that it would be a good idea to pair us up!

hmm.

do i look really that pathetic?

like sam soon?

maybe because she has seen enough of me
alone on the bed at night
with no one to message good night to
(well, i'll msg my lovely sisters when i am feeling that lonely,
so when you receive my good night message,
kindly reply me that i don't need a boyfriend)

and no one to talk on the phone to
(the last time i spent more than one hour on phone
was some random gossiping with one of my mate)

and looks indeed pathetic
snoring away with that piggy lookalike face of mine.

yea, so i think i do look pathetic in someway....

or perhaps she read my sheep diary beside my bed!
(which xinzi apparently browse through it before!
and wanhua was very tempted to touch it!)

no on is suppose to read a single's girl personal diary.

it contains endless sorrowful tales of lonely nights.....

MUAHAHA!

kidding.

and that guy wasn't very tall.

well, if you've noticed,
i got this big thing for tall guys yea.

my jinwen was like 185cm?
and that Mr So and so was 181cm?

hmmm.

but of course she scolded me for being demanding in height
since i was i mean i am
only a very humble 153cm.......

ok, with that,
i shut my mouth.

ok,
a boyfriend.
hmm......

ok, i am off to watch samsoon.

happy chalet tomorrow :)

thanks sister for your care and concern.

SCREAM!

2006-08-24T17:12:00.000+08:00

my god!
feels damn good now.

damn shiok.

because EXAMS ARE OVER!

yea!
and finally went clubbing!

happy?
definitely.

went with xinzi, eileen, wuiting, ouyang, ralpheal, dante, eileen 2, darren, stalone, and friends.
all SP can.
wha lau~
the obvious boycotting......

Ladies' night isn't a great time for clubbing.

if you ask me,
i'd prefer to dance in the middle of guys,
rather than dance in the middle of girls.

i'd rather be crowded by guys,
than to be crowded by girls.

you know girls,
mother of the word bitch.

so how can you enjoy with girls that you don't know?

let's not talk about how those girls just love to squeeze people using their butt,
as if i don't have!

and let's not talk about how people thought i was one bitch too,
trying to seduce their very hopeless-looking boyfriends,
as if i need to!

and also not talk about how short people like me
often get elbowed.
as if i asked for it!

ok.

we'll talk about how we can get in for FREE.
ladies' night you know.

but stupidly, we still have to pay for the drinks,
which is equivelent to the price of the entry.

heh!

but never mind.
let's talk about how much we enjoyed.
the dance, the music.

ok, music is a bit ~
yesterday was like a bit retro?
they played:

That thing you do
Larger than Life
Pretty Woman

and a lot of old school songs.

my god.

but in fact,
it was fun!

they actually have got dance steps for every song!
can you imagine?

actually we enjoy it very much lah
especially like That Thing You Do!
muahaha!

but still,
we went back to Phuture.
you know,
a bit of those retro might be nice,
but too much will bore us.

then we went roti prata.

see, i told you.
its fattening!

its like my god lo,
we eat then go bath then go sleep.

how fattening!
if its not Mac's breakfast,
its roti prata.

it was damn nice after so much of hardwork.

well,
we've decided that MOS is a much better place.
maybe because we always go Zouk at the wrong time.
LOL.

then we say bye bye to ralf.
reminding him to get what he's suppose to bring back from HongKong.
like Char Siew Bao?

LOL

******

just realise that all human needs encouragement,
not discouragement.

and never discouragement.

no matter how much you disagree,
don't discourage,
encourage instead although its against your will.

seriously.

like me,
i always tell you to say what i want to hear.

like when i cut my hair,
i wrote here that i want you to say that
i look nice.

even if you feel that its ugly.

hmm,
and thats a great point of mine,
to be able to voice out that

yes i need encouragement,
i need assurance,
i want you to say this,
i don't want to hear that.

and i get them.
yes, have yet to receive negative feedback.

and i realise that it is not my preference to get compliments and encouragement
against people's will
but its everybody's.

from today onwards,
to be a better person,
to make people happier,
more confident of themselves,

we should be more encouraging.

i think we seldom compliment people,
so we should
if we want to receive compliments too!

so let us all be better person :)

******

actually i don't really know what happened
between Iraq and USA (ok i admit i am a bimbo who don't read newspaper.),
but i feel sad seeing all these pictures.

and i actually felt my eyes becoming watery.
(no, its not the sand)

its like those people are so poor thing,
and we're here,
in front of the computers,
snacking away,
drinking away,
having fun..

and thinking over about things that we couldn't have (my apple macpro......)
when look at them.

are you guilty?

and the soldiers,
they are actually warm blooded people.
not all of them love torturing people.
especially the picture where the soldier was sleeping while holding the girl in his arms.

my god.

such a heart warming sight isn't it?

gosh.
i hate looking at this kind of pictures.
makes me feel so emotionally.

my god.

******

something to ask:

what kind of parent do you want to be?

i've been thinking about this question for a long long time.
failed to get an answer still.

i am afraid to get old,
we nag so much when we grow old.

like emily~

like my mum!

she nags non stop.

i can't stand it.
i mean,
i am not going to complain about her here lah,
its so bad.

i wouldn't want my children to do that.

but she really nags a lot.

and i don't understand
why does she always want me to stay at home?!

its like,
does she enjoys the sight of me
looking nonchalantly into the computer screen,
typing non-stop,
clicking on the mouse,
shaking my leg,
gorging the chocolate,
and farking occasionally?

does she?

if she have such unique love for this me,
i can volunteer to take a picture of me.

and enlarge it to the height of me (which is no problem, i am not that tall)
and frame it up,
put it right in front of her bed,
where she can look at it evreyday.

thats what i do at home!
and is that why she wants me to stay at home?
so she can see that view of me?

god she must be crazy.

either that,
or she prefers the view of me
lying facing down on my sofa,
watching the tv,
laughing loudly+ rudely at Samsoon,
legs up mid air,
swinging to and fro,
farking very occasionally,
and eating potato chips.

this, i can take photo of it too.
no problem.

oh! i know.
she enjoys the smell of my farts.

must be.
this one, a bit of problem.
i can't possibly create a air freshener with my fart.

anyway,
i can't take it anymore.

******

my sister has been talking about moving out of the house.
but i see no happy future about that.

i've just ironed a load of her clothes.

and i can't see how she's going to manage the housework lah.

she can stupidly put a black top
and her pure white top together
into the washing machine

and come crying to my mum after that
when her white top become semi black top.

muahaha!

and my god,
her desk,
as good as a rubbish chute.

forget it,
i don't want to continue anymore,
if not it'll never end.

******

WOOO!

i am having a family chalet tomorrow!!

whoa,
its like first time in my life can.

erm,
not really,
maybe there was one or two when i was really young,
s i don't much memories about it.

anyway, i can three cousins birthday this week.
like so coincident right?

so sadly have to reject Yenxin this cute girl's invitation to DXO tomorrow :(
really reluctantly reject it.

still thinking of ideas to sneak out at night!
muahaha.

******

ok, its the starting of my pathetic one week holiday!

i have to

go beach
go blading
go ice skating
go gym (and i mean it)
go shopping
go clubbing (non-stop if possible)
go pubbing (sounds old but wh n val insisted)
go singing
go movies

my god. one week,
i can do it.
and i must do it!

oh and i must finish watching Kim Samsoon!

you too must enjoy.
even if its studying,
enjoy it.

muahaha.

i mustn't waste this holiday!

ok,
take care people!
maintain good health.

DRINK MORE WATER!
plain water i mean.

2 down!

2006-08-22T01:22:00.000+08:00

HURRAY!

just one more,
one more idiotic paper,

and I AM FREE FROM HELL!

hu ga sha ga hu ga sha ga!
(dance to the tune of victory together!)

hu ga sha ga hu ga sha ga!
(imagine we're all semi-naked surrounding a camp fire in Finestone's dress code!)

hu ga sha ga hu ga sha ga!

WHOO~

feeling kind of not bad now.
atleast better than yesterday.

let's continue!

hu ga sha ga hu ga sha ga..........

******

i am feeling dumb.

its the don't know how many times
i've said this sentence wrongly:

'hey! my new hairstyle nice?!'

damn.

first i said:

'*candy. : my new hair new??!'

then now:

'*candy. : my nice hairstyle nice?'

my god.

am i dumb or dumb or dumb
you tell me.

never mind,
i'll tell you,

yes i am dumb.

******

ok.
white flag up!

forget it i am not dieting already.

you can go and die.
buti am not dying yet.

dieting is a crime.
its a murder.

oh my god.
stop!

stop killing!

how can you not eat when its lunchtime?

how can you not eat when you saw your favourite sandwich?

how can you not eat when you are hungry!!!

you tell me.
you tell me.

is that committing suicide?
or is that dieting murdering me?

you should stop too.

men,
start loving fat women.

they're hugable,
cuddlable,
kissable,
simply,
lovable.

like me :)

like Kim Samsoon.

Love us boys.

******

haha!

i am feeling good!

discussing when and where to go with jeann and val.

WE'RE GOING CLUBBING!

hurray.
erm.

no, we're going pubbing.

anyway,
no matter where we go,
we'll be happy for sure.

cus they miss me.

and i miss them too!

******

ok, tomorrow will be my most hardworking day!
because its the last paper
so ia m going to be
super good!

jia you :)

muahaha.

hu ga sha ga hu ga sha ga!

very boring indeed

2006-08-20T23:48:00.000+08:00

my god!!!!

i am dying of boredom already!!

my god
my god
my god!

where's my god!

bring me to wed can!

my god lah!

wha lau.
i can't stand it.

been studying so much
the whole day.

i can't survive already lah.

tomorrow must study also.
tuesday must study even harder also.

how to live you tell me
how to live?!

this is worse than hell.

stimulates me to think how is hell like.
how can there be such place worse than this?

gosh.
than hell must be when you want to die but can't die.

so be a good soul and you won't go hell le.

haha.

give me some time beofre i finish crapping.

i need to talk or
my mouth will corrode in no time
and my mind will explode and
huge amount of disgusting greenish craps
will be all over my house.

thats the result of studying whole day alone
trap at home
with only crappy food.

thanks.
my mum went for delicious Sakae Sushi
what she calls it her breakfast.

damn.
i ate like dozens of disgusting plain biscuit
with Meiji milk,
considering that the best consumable food already.

because i am on a diet!

yes!
a 3 days diet.

it aggressively lose visible and psychological fats
fast and within 3 days!

just for wednesday.

see how much i am actually looking forward to it.

i want to look my best.
although i haven thought of what to wear.
but i sure have to feel good

because that will marks the start of my relaxing enjoyable worry-free life!

and i have to make it a damn good start!

heh.

although i don't know can i last the 3 days,
i hope i do.

******

Maneater

Everybody look at me, me
I walk in the door you start screaming
C'mon everybody what you here for
Move your body around like a nympho
Everybody get your neck to crack around
All you crazy people c'mon jump around
I wanna see you all on your knees, knees
You either wanna be with me or be me

Maneater, make you work hard,
make you spend hard
Make you want all of her love
She's a maneater
Make you buy cars,
make you cut cards
Make you fall real hard in love
She's a maneater
Make you work hard,
make you spend hard
Make you want all of her love
She's a maneater
Make you buy cars,
make you cut cards
Wish you never ever met her at all

And when she walks she walks with passion
When she talks, she talks like she can handle it
When she asks for something boy she means it
Even if you never ever see it
Everybody get your neck to crack around
All you crazy people c'mon jump around
You doing anything to keep her by your side
Because she says she love you,
love you long time (c'mon!)

*gasp in horror

ROAR. maneater!

but fear not,
i am a maneater, wannabe.

LOL

******

OK,
I AM VERY BORED
and thats all i have to say.

evily,
i hope you are as bored as me too.
and hope you have ten more papers to go
while i am only left with two.

and hope you have not been attending any of your lectures,
and your friends have been tempting you to go clubbing
or whatever fun you may love.

HAHAHA.

hopefully.
thanks.

you're a console to me.

a lot of candies

2006-08-20T02:33:00.000+08:00

introducing,
the CANDIES!

KIM SAM SOON (from My Lovely Samsoon)

it was said that her bong-ness
and thick-skin-ness and funnines
is undeniably like me.

and i was forced to do act like her...

XIAO S

hmm,
been agreed that my hair looks like hers.
and well,
so i look like her :)

(and very sadly) XIAO WAN ZI

this stupid looking character from cartoon
with the impressive watermelon fringe.

MY GOD.
tres traumatised.
but both wt and ginny said that
i look like her!!

and wt even force me to do some actions of xiao wan zi,
which i don't know cus i've never watch the cartoon before..

hehheh.

******

my god.

why am i in front of this com now!
gosh.

its so so so wrong!

i should be on my bed,
studying my Biology now!

damn.
i need to complete

Blood
Immunology
Endocrine System

and

Reproductive System.

actually,
i've finish both Endocrine and Reproductive System.
but i've forgotten all about them already!

damn.
damn.
damn.

i am feeling so lazy~

i can't wait already.

damn.
3 papers only
and i am groaning like hell now.

got to go sleep now.
its late.
have lots to study still.

people, preets, hunks,
work hard too!
you know fun is waiting :)

cornflake mania

2006-08-18T13:22:00.000+08:00

GOSH!

i had 3 cups of cornflake!

damn, its damn filling can.

i actually only wanted 2 cups.
and then only left one cup's portion,
so might as well finish it.

and now i feel so damn full.
i feel like puking!

my god.
i really feel like puking.

and i've already ask my mum to packet wanton mee for me!
shouldn't have even thought of having one cup.

now, i am full of regrets.
damn!
so full!
so fat!

******

ok,
today is a Friday.

suppose to be my favourite day,
but due to the thick Biology book,
i've decide to call it off.

no more favourite Friday.

its only the starting man.
damn!

i still have got Saturday and Sunday to study!

how i wish today was Sunday.

ugh.

today is my lil potato's 2nd birthday celebration!

hurray!

she's 2!

and she annoying came into my room,
and sat on me,
and accidentally woke me up.

argh.

and went to play with my sister's make up,
all over her face..
my god.

see how naughty she is?
gosh.
i think she has my uncles' genes.
thats very bad.

******

ok, i got to go vacuum the floor already.

and stuffing the wanton mee in.
its easy to know why am i growing up well.

just too well.
hyper-nutriented.

thanks mum and dad.

my god :p

The Break Up

2006-08-18T02:57:00.000+08:00

a million thanks to all the producers of The Break Up.
it wasn't really an excellent movie,
but the meaning was deep.

it was touching yet stupid.

a loving couple can en dup breaking and hurting each others' heart
just because of stupid stuff like
not getting 12 lemons,
not doing the dishes,
not going for the ballet performance.

sounded so dumb isn't it?
but so true.

thats what couples broke up for isn't it?
i mean i was once a victim of this stupidity too.

its all about the girl and the boy.
what do they each think,
what is their concept about love,
what do they from love,
what were they expecting,
how much are they willing to give,
what is right to them,
what is right to them,

soo many different points of view.
how to live happily ever after?

i can't stand how guys feel.
all they think are big things,
big dreams,
materialistic things.

like how to get more money,
how to buy for her this,
where to get the money from..

we'll be really happy to receive a bouquet of rose everyday,
but is that what we want?

are we expecting you to pluck the stars out for us?
are we expecting you to give us money everyday?
are we expecting you to get us a present everyday?

no!

we don't!

all we want is just to be cared, be loved.
and thats very simple..

don't you know that girls are the most easiest to cheat on?
just some sweet concern,
good hugs,
deep kisses,

and we'll be following wherever you want to take us to.

we're that easy.
we don't want diamonds enough to sprain our fingers,
we want chocolates enough to give us sore throat when we're having PMS.

we don't want to catch movie everyday,
we want endless cuddles in front of the TV set with endless DVDs for the whole day.

we don't want dinners enough to sell your whole house,
we want the food you cooked for us.

well,
i mean,
we need a lot of little details,
little cares,
little things,

not big big things.
it doesn't really make us happy.

we are so particular when it comes to feeling,
we're so sensitive about it.
we try to understand everything that you said,
we try to figure out every little problem in the love,
we try to make sure that we do our best,
we get so commited.

but guys just won't do the same.
guys can toss everything out of their heads once they sit in front of the TV,
with the soccer going on.
guys can forget and ignore any problem,
and acts like nothing happened.

sometimes i wonder do they even know that there is a problem?

can guys ever sit down quietly,
and start reading the book
'Men from Mars, Women from Venus'
will you?

we will.
in fact, i did.

that's not a bible for love,
but the effort to read,
just shows how much we actually care aout small stuff.

guys wouldn't do that for the sake of maintaining a stable love right?

anyway, the morale of the movie was:

'you can actually do things so much differently.'

its like,
there were so many things that you wished that you could have done it differently,
but its always too late already when you finally realise it.
isn't it?

you wish that
you didn't demanded so much,
you didn't quarrel so much,
you didn't want that so much,
you actually could do it with anoher way,

so many many things that you wish you had done it differently.

hmm, meaningful movie i have to say.
all girlfriends should bring their guys to watch it
and make sure that they really understand it.

******

today was sucha good day.
shopping, eating, buying,

i had it all!

muahaha.

as you can see,
all of us were so tired of studying already!
we were all looking forward to 23rd,
when we can party until we drop!

drop also must continue partying!

LOL.
we were so preparing for it lo.
like planning about what to wear already.

eil even planned to buy this dress from Forever 21, $43,
especially for that night.

me,
been shopping for a nice corset the whole day.
and wedges too.
although i've bought like 3 tops already,
but none of them seems ok for the night,
its too big to dress sloppishly!

so,
we're really giving ralf a huge face.
muahaha.

(just another excuse to party more lah.)

LOL

c'mon, just 2 more papers,
and i am done with it.

girls, buck up,
23rd,
we're waiting.
we're coming.
on the way there soon.

muahah.

******

ok lah, today been so good mood
cus i've finally found abag of my liking.
and its like

LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT!

was shopping with syidah and i spotted it at Future State.

can't resist it lah!
my god.
damn nice lo.

die die must buy.

one and only piece in the shop somemore.
although quite expensive, $48,
but its wthin my bag budget lah.

initially wanted to buy this Le Coq Sportif bag that cost &79 remember?
luckily didn't,
or i'll be missing this.

muahaha.
been searching for one super nice one since april!
although they didn't feel that its that nice,
and even looks like from Bugis Street due to the poka dots,
but,

i love it very much.

muahaha.
good good.

ok! saw that?
thats the divine bag.
cute.

i am cute bodoh.
my god.
guess what was i doing?

playing with the floor's animation.
if you walk across it,
it'll change according to your footsteps.
my god.

how fun.
but they lied,
there's no need to take off shoes.
and i look like a big fool!

LOL.

my god.

BY THE WAY

if you go Cineleisure,
and a boy of about 1.75m,
fair and thin,
wearing a specs,
innocently ask you for $1 because he wants to watch movie,

PLEASE DON'T GIVE HIM!

ASK HIM TO FUCK HIS GRANDMA INSTEAD.

thanks.

he fuckingly cheated so many people's $1.
just how many movies was he going to catch?

not that i care about the $1,
just that find him disgusting,
fancy earning this kind of cheated money.

no matter how poor he is,
he seems healthy to me.
i am sure he could have made better use of his 4 limps.

so please be careful.
sympathy are dangerous.

******

alright,
had so mch fun today.
thanks my babes especially syidah for accompanying me!
muahaha.

have a good night sleep.
need to study again tomorrow.

and to my dearest lil potato,
happy 2nd birthday!

muacks!
love you to the bits!

Great time tonight

2006-08-16T01:40:00.000+08:00

hey!

i am now in the ultra old and tattered Seven Dwarfs pyjamas again!
muahaha.

the one with lots of holes.
so that my horny lesbian xin can get a peep of what's inside.

LOL.

right, i am now at xinzi's house.

llllloooovvvveeee her place.

good food
good people
good bed
good ambience
good sex

LOL.

no lah.
we're straight.

but when two single-and-sexually-deprived girls get together,
you can never imagine.

haha.
she is now studying in the room
while i am here playing around.

soooo hardworking.
tsk tsk tsk.

so boys and girls,
this is a very good example of a lazy bum,
and is called

ling2 shi2 bao4 fuo2 jiao3

hehheh.
ok, i can see what i'll be doing tomorrow night already.
so now i'll just relax.
while stealing her songs.

ahhh..
today has been a tiring day.
i've been studying at Mac.

******

how i wonder.
where is fate taking me to?

it seems strange because
i have a feeling that well,
something bad is going to happen to me soon.

i have got this question that has been popping out into my mind for like 10 times today.
i mean,
like more than 10 times.

and this is a real serious question
which i don't really thought of it as a question.

more of life and death.

hmmm.
and its real bad because a denied question is one that was left unanswered.
and

a question,
has to be one with an answer,
or
one that needs an answer.

thats why it is called,

a question.

i am so crappy now.
because i am thinking of something else.

hmm,
something that makes me want to puke.
but yet,
that was what i was thinking about the whole day.

ahhh.
and yes,
fate seems to has its control all over me
most of the time.

******

right,
about my new hair.

if you are wondering,
yes,

its almost like Aeon Flux.

or i should say,
identical.

just that mine was a bit too awkward in some angle.
and seems a bit too out of place.

its that short.
but mine was funnier
and more messy.

more mina too.

so syidah, i am converting in case you haven't notice.

LOL.

so far,
no negative feedback.

thats damn great.
i don't want to cry in tears of regrets under my blanket.

so if you do have any negative feedbacks,
DON'T TELL ME.

you can talk behind me in anyway you like.

but don't let me know that i do look ugly in that hair.

thanks.

and if i ask you,
whether i look better in the long hair or now,

do me a flavour,
say that i look better now.

and i'll love you a million and find you a great perosn with superb taste.
aligato!

muahaha.

i am this unreal in case you haven't notice about it.
yes,
and i want to live in my la-la land
and want everybody to follow this rule.

muahaha.
that's how i am going to dominate the world.

but its good,
everybody will be beautiful!

ugly only in the sense that everyone will be talking only behind everyone!

muahaha.

come on,
we need some really nice and sweet disconnection from the reality to live.

surely you wouldn't want to live like the person inside the mirror everyday right?
thats so much of cruelty.

we need to dream a little.

dream a little dream of me~

******

ahhh yesss.
dreams.

cunning illusion.

dreams.
so tell me,

are dreams for real?
or

some kind of phenomenum?
or

some rubbish cartoon?
or

some eerie episode?

i need to know.
this is what i really need and want to know.

come on.
i am sure you should have some idea about it.
tell me about it man.

to me,
dreams are nothing but some movie about me,
which seriously drive me crazy all the time.

there were

sweet ones,
scary ones,
sad ones,
nice ones,
impossible ones,
lovely ones,
damn-good-if-true ones,
flying ones,
de javu ones,
crazy ones,
luckily-just-a-dream ones...

so many.
but recently,

i have been having bad ones.

those that haunt you even in broad daylight.
those that will leave you staring into space for one hour before you sleep.

those are the real scary ones.

argh.
of course i didn't dream about the 4th dimension thingy.

well,
its hard to talk about it here.
i don't want to invite unwanted stuff.

so,
lets talk about ti some other times.

just one question,
if you dream of someone almost everynight,
what does that mean?

*shiver down my spine

******

ah ha,
i am going in to accompany xin now.
(man just can't wait)

i am gong to read the pile of magazines
while she studies.

see,
what a good friend i am.
i could have gone to sleep.
(which i dread now)

and i'll be home tomorrow morning.

ho ho ho,
don't miss me.

i'll go and have an enjoyable time now!
and tomorrow,
we'll be full of radiance.

thats the power of sex isn't it?

ohh, naughty boy,
she just came out to rush me again.

bad bad.
and she insist on staying beside me while i blog.

big hell no.

and she insist that i pretend that she's not there.

when there she is,
sitting there just beside me.

and i can even feel her breathe.
and she's such a huge statue.

tell me how to imagine that she's not there?

tell me?

and she say save her trouble of going to my blog later on.
gee.
nono, nobody reads when i blog....

i am that divine.

muahaha..!

no lah
but its so strange and funny.

i won't watch a movie starring me with anybody else.
you won't right?

ok, good night people :)

Snipped

2006-08-15T00:44:00.000+08:00

yea!
after so much of bothersome delay,
i finally got them snipped off!

hurray!
let's just pray that i'll have no regret about it.

LOL.

right.
how can i bear to let them go.

thinking about it now,
i feel so brave.

tsk tsk tsk.
i doubt i'll have that courage again now.
LOL.

its really quite a lot.
like, 10 cm?

serious.
its this much!

and i am like
having a serious short hair now.

short hair

gee.
think for me,
i don't like to keep things struggling.

like my curls.
i straighten them because
they were struggling then.

and its no point.

then my long brittle hair.
they were struggling to be straight.
so well, lets just end the torture.

ahhh.
feel so much better now.
like how a monk would feel after his first shave.

******

omg!
everybody already have some ideas about what to get for Halloween already!
and i am still stuck here!

damn!

no!

i must think fast!
shit.
what else can i dress up as?
they were suggesting Killer Nurse.

but....

thats very me.

thats too me already.

nothing special isn't it?

and then what else?

i thought of geisha,
but then its too common?

especially this year is like,
so geisha,
due to the movie
Memoirs of Geisha.

so geisha would sure be a hot favourite this year.

and then i thought of witch.
its so common too.

what else!

gosh.
help me think leh.
what can i be?

hmmm.
like some Catwoman?
dang.

gosh.
sailor Moon!

muahaha.
that was what i thought at first.
and i want to be Sailor Venus!

LOL.

highly impossible.

eh!
help me think leh!

so damn it leh.

or Corpse Bride?

like so common also.
everybody also want to be Bride.

nothing else already.
hai.

i think i should be thinking about Biology now istead of Halloween....

ok,
i ought to start studying.

my paper is on Thursday,
which is about 3days more.

and i haven't quite study yet.
now then realise that Starbucks doesn't allow you to study there.

or was i just too unlucky?

anyway, don't study there alright?
you'll get chased away.

and its after you've spent like $7 on your macchiato.
so don't waste it.

Mac's only like $2?
and its all you want.

you want to sleep there also can.

******

sigh.

my iPod is giving me a headache.

it needs to be sent back for servicing.
and will be ready within 3 wokring days.

gosh,
i have to go back to Wheel Lock Place to get it.
damn troublesome can.

anyway,
hope it'll be super fine after that.

******

tomorrow,
tomorrow,
tomorrow,
i am going to start studying.

for real.

like just sit down and study.

have an early night :)

good grace.
hope i won't have any ridiculous dream again tonight.
thanks.

my late National Day pride

2006-08-12T15:50:00.000+08:00

SOB..

im feeling so damn emotional now!
watching the National Day Parade repeat.

oh my.
i've just realise how not-National-Day i was.

it has been such a long long time since i sang the Majulah Singapura.
and been calling it Mari Kita,
which was hell wrong!
thats not the name of our National anthem!

omg.

i think once you leave secondary school,
thats when everything ends.

we use to celebrate National Day in school.
such a huge occasion.
Band will play and NCC, NPCC, St John will be marching.

is that?
oh no!
thats Speech Day.

ok, i remembered.
National Day only NCC will be marching.
with the Singapore's flag.

aww, what a good memory.

and in school,
we celebrate Racial Harmony Day.
which Emily did this year cus she's in CI.
but not us in poly.
we can only dres up for Halloween now :(

no more Indian costume, Malay costume, Cheong Sam.
hah.
i remembered wearing a gold colour Cheong Sam for it in sec 4!
how brave.
borrowed it from xinjia.
LOL.

but damn fun lah.
so jealous to see the secondary students uploading the photos they took for Racial Harmony Day to Frienster.
SOB.

those National songs, so nice and meaningful.

'we're Singapore,
we're Singapore,
we will stand together hear the lion roar...'

last time we were forced to sing them during our National Day celebration.
and we refused.
find it lame.

but now, we've got no chance to do so.
unless we go to the NDP lah.
you can't expect me to sing it when watching the telecast right!
you want me to shock my family?!

sigh.
so sad.
but congratulation Singapore for coming this far.

i enjoy watching the ministers clapping along to the songs in NDP.
i know they were trying their best to join in the music.
but...

they were all clapping to different rythme
and different beats.

hmm, i think they should get some basic music lesson.

muahaha.

oh i saw my grandfather!
ahhh.

he is indeed getting old.
hair all white.

you know whats my family's biggest fear?
thats him being too old.

my dad strongly believe that Singapore will not be able to go far if he's gone.

gosh,
choy.
lets not talk about such rubbish.
he's steady and strong.

he will
wan sui wan sui wan wan sui!

******

ok, me and vala re discussing whether to watch midnight or watch at princess.

midnight movie such a nuisance.
i love watching midnight because i love going home late.

but its the transportation thats a problem.

if only i got bike.
and i can send val home...
and then go home.
ahh..

Ardent love http://realm-of-fantasy.blogspot.com/ says:
omfg

Ardent love http://realm-of-fantasy.blogspot.com/ says:
den how we go home?

*candy. suck it up. no sweat babe no sweat; says:
erm

*candy. suck it up. no sweat babe no sweat; says:
gd qns.

*candy. suck it up. no sweat babe no sweat; says:
cab?

*candy. suck it up. no sweat babe no sweat; says:
if only i got motor.........

Ardent love http://realm-of-fantasy.blogspot.com/ says:
omg

Ardent love http://realm-of-fantasy.blogspot.com/ says:
thank god u dont have one

Ardent love http://realm-of-fantasy.blogspot.com/ says:
if not i think we'll just perish

*candy. suck it up. no sweat babe no sweat; says:
hahahaha!

*candy. suck it up. no sweat babe no sweat; says:
wha lau

*candy. suck it up. no sweat babe no sweat; says:
if got bike i cn jus drive u home..

*candy. suck it up. no sweat babe no sweat; says:
so gd

Ardent love http://realm-of-fantasy.blogspot.com/ says:
i see.. den i'll never reach home

because of her ungratefulness,
i shall let her enjoy the bliss of being my first passenger.

congratulation valerie!

when i get my license,
you'll be the first one i'll call to share!

muahaha.

roller coaster mania

2006-08-12T02:30:00.000+08:00

i can feel it.
i can feel it.
i can feel it.

yea~
its like, roller coaster.

whoa..
my tummy is like a washing machine!
omg.

i can feel that shit inside,
having a really goood time
enjoying their roller coaster trip!

its been terrible actually.
especially after meals.
feel like puking out everything that went in,
its like tummy overload.

but nevertheless,
i ate all i want!
LOL.
so serve me right.

anyway, the lactulose is working right now to get all out of my tummy.
and i guess/hope i'll be fine after tonight :)

and will be able to have a good night's sleep.

was bitterly crying to sleep yesterday ok..
tummy was in great pain,
i thought i was going to faint!
until i feel the urge and
rush madly to the toilet and puke allover.

tough times!
no sweat.

so now i feel so disgusting.
all vomit and shit.
muahaha~

lets get this over.
hopefully, no more second episode of this serious constipation again!

******

hurray!
today is the last day of my 3 weeks attachment.

went to St Anthony Canossian Pri today.
oh god.
the primary school students were like,
so adorable lo!

they love asking so many questions!
so noisy!
so hard to ask them to sit down quietly lo!
oh my god!

they were so hyper!
super active and super curious..

'jie jie, what's behind the curtains?'
'nurse! what are we suppose to do behind the curtain?'
'injections painful anot?'

blah blah blah....

soo many questions.
muahaha.

but so cute.
can see how youthful they are.
so innocent.

feel sad for myself,
i am going to be 18 soon.
like, so old lo!

******

oh well.
i am so movie-deprived.

c'mon!
pity me,
its been lke months since i've last watched a movie!

and its Just My Luck.
like decades ago isn't it.

just look at how many movies i've missed.
and now,
i am dying to watch The Lake House and Pirates.

i am like so out not watching them!
i MUST watch them.
no matter what.

was talking to Tracy today.
and she told me she went to watch The Lake House alone,
knowing that there will be couples around her.

man.
she was brave.
i was so impressed!

god can you imagine?
going for a romance alone?
but it was all worthwhile cus the movie was stunningly good.

hmmm.
and i was so inspired by her.
and have since decided to be more INDEPENDENT!

and my first goal was to watch a movie by myself.
that would be tres impressive!

i'll definitely reward myself with 1000bucks if i really did that.
i mean, i will.

well, i've already bought myself an iPod nano to encourage my independency.
so the more i should start out.
but that would be after my ipod finally make friend with my desktop.
apparently, they were on quite a bad term now.
neither one seem to be willing to give up.

gosh and its making my damn frustrating.
even my bro-in-law has nothing to help.

back to independency.
i am going to start out.
so don't be shocked if you hear me saying taht i got my shoppings done alone soon!

that would be one thing to congratulate me about
and be proud of!
muahaha.

hey, its not easy to be so independent ok!
everybody finds it a big no-no to be alone.
atleast, its one damn big no-no!

would you want to eat alone or eat with someone?
its the same theory.
and i don't need so much time alone with myself.

while some people may find that therapeutic,
i find that depressing.
lol.

not that much actually,
but it do get you down doesn't it?
and the time before dozing off, bathing time,
ain't it enough for the awesome therapy?

too much time alone will lead to stimulation of depressing thoughts.
isn't it?
well i think a bit too much when i am alone.
but tends to forget about all the sadness when i am not alone.

so you see me getting more and more depressed when i am lonely and busy.
busy meaning i am so busy with work or school.

ok, i think i've elaborated a bit too much for my fight for independency....
but well, i can't help it :)

for my independence, CHEERS!

******

yoo know what attracts me most in a man?
its his warmth.
his body temperature.

its always create wanders.
always got this special touch.

a man's warmth is so unique.
and his scent.
whether right or wrong scent,
plus right or wrong warmth.

thats the very factor that will get me hooked.
lacking of any will not work anymore.

******

ok, well well.
i am very tired already.

so good night!

hoping to meet up with so many people!
time is never enough,
work is never gonna finish,
so,

why work?

muahaha.
ok lah,
i am already in holiday mood
although i have exams next week.
fully unprepared yet.

but nvm,

there's always a tomorrow isn't it?

this is bad.

2006-08-10T21:09:00.000+08:00

i mean real bad.

although i am all over about it already,
but i still can't swallow it down.

like i mean,
yea, i still feel soo sourish.

but never mind.
never mind.

cool it babe.
cool it.
suck it in..

no sweat babe.
no sweat.

ooh la la~
ooh la la~

no sweat no sweat.

******

after days of vomiting, plain porridge, stupid bread,
i've finally made up my mind,
to see a doctor.

was a good catch.
he was, very prospective husband material.
haha!

guess what was my prescribsion?
6 bottles of lactulose!

damn 6!
and i had to carry it all the way from Outram to Bedok!
omg lo!
and hid some in my bag so no one will find me scary!
even the pharmacist finds that unbelievable.

i am fantastic.

******

tomorrow,
i am going to St Anthony Canossian Pri Sch!
i am going to see little kids getting jabbed..
muahaha.

i am considered lucky.
xiao pang was actually posted to some school in Woodlands!
omg.
so far~

sigh.
i am so so so dead now.
my tummy is so cramped.
no space anymore.
the doctor had to hide his laugh away.
god.
so embarrassing!

******

yesterday was National Day!

yahoo!
Happy 41st birthday Singapore!

oh my god lo.
we're 41!
hurray.

love Singapore.
i swear i'll never want to move out of this fab place.
i wonder why people just can't wait to move out.
its stupid.

maybe because i am timid.
i am so dependent.
not independent enough.

the thought of living in another country is so scary.
i'll feel so tiny.

so this is my safety boundary.
in the foreign country,
we'll all be so prone to being bullied.
no one will protect us from harm.
no LEEs.

no LEEs = no ME!

so i won't leave here.
never!

why step out of this safety zone?

gosh.
so, don't be dumb.
love this place!

******

SIGH.
can't hide it anymore lah.
i am dead lah ok.
so bloody upset.
and disgusted.

stupid dumb ass.
fancy being all sad over silly stupid things.

i am going to take my medication again.
bye.

my dosage is 20mls twice a day lo!
but who cares.

don't let me die,
if i die,
i'll become the constipation witch
and going around cursing and putting constipation spells.

muahaha.
let everybody get a feel of what i suffered!

who says i can't shop?

2006-08-06T17:13:00.000+08:00

HURRAY!

feeling damn satisfied now.
gosh.

been such a long time since i've shopped,
or even,
since i've bought something!

and yes!
i finally did!

out of boredom,
i've bought an iPod Nano!

hmmm.
feeling damn great lah.
just have to wait for its arrival and
voila! i can enjoy my fabulous iPod.

ok,
tomorrow is a Monday.
the start of a new week!

we've got to get moving yeah?
we can't be stucked in a daze forever right?

now now,
get going.

take care.

BOX

2006-08-05T18:51:00.000+08:00

today was suppose to be my day out.
was suppose to be attending TPMB's concert.

uh uh.
wasted my $10.

how wasteful.
could have bought like some useful stuff
than throwing the money into the air.

and was suppose to be going clubbing
but was cancelled again.
really turned off.

now, i'll never believe the girls' plans anymore.
they are always swinging!
oh girls~

so i am spending my saturday at home again.

couldn't make it for the concert because something happened.

my sister dislocated her right shoulder.
she was closing the door and the whole arm just dropped out.

cool.

something got me really fed up.
she was screaming in pain.
yet my mum just refuse to call the ambulance.
my neighbour and her insisted on calling for a chinese physician.

my sister couldn't even walk
and was so damn pale!
scare the hell out of me

and i felt so useless
and can only hold her fallen out arms for her
and cry with her.

i felt so angry.
why can't they trust me.
i asked her to call the ambulance.

what fucking chinese physician?
cb.

and end up have to call my neighbour's husband to drive back from somewhere far away,
and go all the way to some fucking stupid chinese physician to fetch him.

in the end,
the chinese physician wasn't even around.

and after wasting about 45mins over the chinese physician thingy,
my mum finally decided to call the ambulance.
my face was already darn black.

and had to wait for another 15 mins for the ambulance.

why?

sigh.

and when i was finally back, it was already 4pm.
which was the time i was suppose to meet xinzi they all.

i thought i could join them later on.
little did i know that the concert starts at 5pm instead of 7pm.

uh damn it.
not my day.

and now having terrible mood.
just talk my sister not to talk to me cus im having a bad mood.
shocked her.

and was asked to go skating.
like uh!

why?
why will i only be invited to skating!
i don't want to skate.
i love to but i don't want.

is that the only thing that we can do.

why are the people around me all sick.
you may be ill, but you may not be sick.
get it?

psychologically sick.

its like i am really tired of facing all the complains.
maybe its because i am always in hospital,
i've seen even more sick patients,
and so i don't feel a thing about stupid flu, fever all that shit.

get a doctor!

if you're not going to take my advice,
don't tell me.

the patients,
so ill.

i don't know lah but i just can't give people the attention that they feel that they should be getting.
i am sorry but no, i can't.
i cannot be continuously giving and giving.
i am not a machine shit.
you need attention,
you need people to care for you,
find some other people.

being nurse doesn't make me an attention giver.
i am a care giver,
only to my patient.
patient meaning people who are really ill.

enough lah ok.
maybe i'll give you more attention
i have people giving me more attention.

please.
you're ill.

find out your problem.

Sunday.
tomorrow is a sunday.
and, i have no idea what to do about it.

now,
the letters W E E K E N D
doesn't seems very appealing to me anymore.

good day to you.
have fun.

im cursed. help!

2006-08-03T17:50:00.000+08:00

omg.
i'll never doubt that this is the worst week i've ever had.

today is only thursday
and i am already getting all the hell..

hmmm, been cursed?

i swear.

so alright,
its been bad enough.
so shhhh...
lets not flip through my memories of the past few days again.

panadols are useless in this case.

sad things are always happening,
so does happy things!

hurray.

hey i've been stucked here for the past 5 mins.
thinking of what else to continue..
and its like..

hurray.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.

ok. nothing to hurray about those.
cus today has been a bad day.
my cutie pie pt just been discharge.

ok, i am bad.
evil enough to wish that he'll stay longer.

pardon me for the bad mood.
very less cute houseman lately,
but endless ugly freaks.

gee.
so you see,
its very hard to balance out between
looks,
and intelligence.

so there are words like bimbo, geek..
i mean, its really hard to find someone
who has got brain as well as look.

hmm.
hard,
real hard.

have not met one yet.
but will.
so, will tell you when i've him.

you know what i want most right now?

i want a slimming package.

some effective slimming package.

i've been gaining weight.
and has been awfully fat.
i can't move.
and i never get slim-days anymore.

it sucks big time.

uh huh.
that must be why i feel so bad mood.
ugh.
ugly.

but now after eating my Kinder Bueno,
i feel sooo much better.
muack!
love myself and the way i treat myself.
omg.

ok, tomorrow is Friday!
hurray!
Friday has always been my favourite day of the week!
hmm.
tomorrow i am having morning shift.
ahh, good, i finish at 3pm.
but, no calls, no messages.
i'll just spend it watching tv in that case.

ok,
i am going to do my nursing care plan now.
i am going to have the perfect care plan
for my cutie pie
although he has already discharged :(

super sob.
no more motivation.

right.
next day tomorrow :)
lets break the curse.

FUCK

2006-08-02T00:15:00.000+08:00

yea.
i am really angry.
and really feel like killing.

using a parang.

cbcbcbcbcbcbcbcbcb.
pardon me.
i need to.

been calling so many people.
apologising and apologising non stop.
fuck. cb.
when i have no control over it.

i suppose the class will really hate me to my bones
now that i got them involved for my trouble.
but i did not want that to happen.
and it wasn't mw who allow that to happen lah.

no use explaining anyway.
no time to.

now i got to go to bed.
and lie there with a clear mind.
and think of another tactic.
think real hard.
been thinking so much that i think i am losing my hair.
i have to get another tactic by tomorrow
and mass send it to all those involved
so that they can be freed.

its like.
i am at my desperate ends lo.
i was already at my desperate end
but it got more and more complicated.
until now.

its not that i wanted to be dishonest.
its not that i am afraid to tell the truth.
its just that i don't want to bastard anybody.
just that i don't want them to be into this trouble with me.
i don't want to bastard them.
its not about them.

and if i say out the truth,
all of us will get it.
especially people with clean record.
why get them dirty just cus of me.

well i didn't want it to happen.
and what ever that i don't want,
happened.

and all i can do is to think again
of another way to keep clear.
got many people helping.
syidah pat and naz.
all of them not involved.
but yet they are helping me to think of a tactic.
they were good souls i have to say.
thanks.

whatever it is.
i got to go.
and i don't need luck now.
cus i am in a state too terrible for luck to save.

forget it.
fuck.
everybody's screaming that.

yea, i am god damn sorry.
but trust me,
i will not bastard you.

disastrous

2006-07-30T16:28:00.000+08:00

wha!
very frustrating can!

i am doing my research now.
very unlucky.
of all the people my CI pick me to pass report to her.
damn.

how did she know that i was the laziest?

omg.

wha, then she ask so many questions all i don't know.
and force me to read out the doctors' writing.

omg, thats the worse.

thats one thing i can never master.

LOL.

but seriously, even if i know what they were writing,
i'll never understand them.

their clinical notes were like:

?SDH, bil SAH
GCS
IVC filter
dil. CMP EF 20-25%
refer uro for UTI

...

like ?

and my CL expects me to know all of them.
aiyoo. the abbreviations!
so chim!

and i stupidly thought uro was neurology!
muahaha!

and was thinking why UTI need to refer to neurology..
UTI means urinary tract infection.
ok, so in the end i realise uro was urology.

and my CI expects me to know what medications the patients were taking.
aiyoo....
i was stuck with her for more than 1 hour
just to pass report for my team,
which only consist of 12 beds....

LOL.

and she was so angry that her face went so red!
for a minute i thought she was going to faint.
muahaha.

but how i know what is SDH SAH FFP all that..
so my homework was to go and find out.
aiyoo..
so many how to find..
find already also don't know what is it.
and must find again.
aiyoo.

ok, now i know
SAH- subarachnoid hemorrhage
a blood vessel outside the brain ruptures causing the subarachnoid space to be filled with blood.

muahaha!
clever girl.

so many to find.

omg.

like i am so free like that.
you people at other hopsitals are so lucky.

imagine i even got theory test from my CI.
and 2 presentations on VAC & IVC filter.
and one nursing care plan.

with my CI, its not that hard to imagine.

like so many thing to do...
omg.

ok, going for dinner at the prata shop later
with the preets.
feel like cutting my hair.
but can't think of a good salon.
gee.

whoa.
its 4:56pm already!
i got to go watch tv already.
right.

Mood madness

2006-07-30T01:30:00.000+08:00

hmmm.
i think i'll be spending this weekend at home.

and i am quite delighted to do so.
although with some reluctance.

i am really desperate for shopping.
because i need to de-stress and de-tired myself.

this week is dull.
i mean, working right?
how fun can it be?

but best of all is to end it with a fabulous night out.
and, thats really best.

went MOS on friday night.
i was working 1-9pm.
zoomed straight after that.

hah, i really love fighting with time and energy.

went with preets and hunks.
xinzi, eileen, xinjia,
xinzi's classmates ivy, nicole, saleh(is that the correct spelling?)
and ruth and jason came later.

was fun dancing around.
i think that was what i really love about clubbing.
it was so de-stressing.

often, i wish i can live in those moments forever.

didn't drink much that night.
we were so obscess with the dancefloor
that nobody wants to drag themselves across the crowd to the bar.

gees.
lychee martini.
big thanks to ruth's generousity!
muahaha.

was picked up on the dancefloor.
this guy, not very tall this time,
who complimented that i danced quite well.

i think it would be so much better if he said i danced well.
the word quite doesn't sounds that flattering.
but nvm, i am still very traumatised.
muahaha.

first time ever somebody compliments that i dance well!
calls for a celebration!
muaha.

big thanks to xinjia too!
for being such an excellent driver.
i am not being sarcastic here ok!
haha.

although i felt kind of nausea on the ride to MOS.
but was fine after that.
she was so sweet.
keep on apologising to us when we know that its not her fault.
muahaha.

and evil ruth.
doing her usuals again!
tsk tsk.
evil evil..

but nvm, it benefits me very well.
muahaha!

and its the best to sleep from morning after a night-out!
really nice.

aw, but its not that nice if you just had breakfast before that.
i seriously feel that we'll all be gaining weight
instead of losing weight
if we go for the MacDonald's breakfast everytime
after clubbing!

uh huh.
and big thanks to jason!
for the nice breakfast.
he's another aw, very nice guy.
muahaha.

hope the next night-out isn't very far away!
i've got money now
and i need to use them for my de-stressing therapies:
clubbing and shopping.

so please make full use!

LOL.

******

so i woke up in the noon today.
was suppose to catch Pirates of the Carribean with mum.
but her mood swinged.
so cancelled.
argh.

so spend it watching tv and snacking non-stop again.
was feeling good.
until just now.

received a call from Loi-my mentor.
regarding my dishonesty act.

its giving me a damn disgusting headache.
disrupting my peace.
and i hate it.

she ask me what actually happened.
and warned me to see the Deputy Director of Nursing by monday.
otherwise,
i most probably will be de-barred from all examinations.

this is terrible.
and its a trouble too big.
it is threatening my present financial harmony.
and threatening my life's peace.
and my very high up pride.

c'mon.
i got to get myself out of this shit no matter what.
and i am still thinking, how.

and thats the cause of my headache.
damn.
seems like this time,
i'll have huge problem getting scott-free.

sigh.

******

ok, its been a month since i got a haircut.
and i've decided to do so.

i am sick of this hair already.
the colour, the non-style in it, the deadness,
just how my hair looks like now.

i already got a brief idea of how i want it to be.
but i still need some time to re-consider over and over again.
i know every well i don't have much time left.
but well, need some courage and detailed planning.

i simply can't live with this dull hair already.
and my colour.

its damn fading.

from black to brown.

oh god.
i need to do something to it.
i don't want to be stuck with this brown forever.
its ugly.
i don't like brown.
and have grown out of that era.

c'mon.
what age is it now.
brown or gold is so ah lian at bugis street can.

ok, hope i am not offending anybody.
maybe to me lah,
ok, i don't like brown hair now.
but who knows?
maybe i'll fall in love with it again the next season.

LOL.

******

ok, i am going to pop on my bed
and read my favourite mag.
and think about my hair,
and think about what should i do tomorrow
and think about what else to add to my shopping list
and calculate my finance status
and fantasise about me and my houseman
and finally drop into the pitch black dark hole- sleeping.

thats about it.

people, remember to enjoy and do what you know will make you happy.
otherwise, you'll never be happy.

no, i've decided to fantasise about Orlando Bloom
to release my desire for him.

movies, any takers?

my 8am, 5pm time slot.

2006-07-26T22:33:00.000+08:00

wha!
seems like a year since i've blogged!
muahaha.

actually no lah.
just came online on monday didn't i....

alright.
wha, i am like so no-life for the past 3 days.
go home after attachment, then eat chocolate on my bed, read mag, fall a sleep, have dinner, brush teeth, sleep, wake up, go to work.......
blah blah blah.

its not that bad.
just sinfully nice.
omg, i swear i am gaining at the rate of 1kg per day.
let's not talk abt it,
depressing isn't it?

good, let's talk about.........

my 8 am and 5pm time slot!!

WHOO!

guess, what is it about!?
muahaha.
my dear nurses,
don't tell me you don't know.
highlight of the ward.

8 am.

its the time...

.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.

when doctors do their rounds.

aw.
its not that actually.
but well, it about who is following them....

HOUSEMAN!

yea.
thats the time that kept me going.
muaha.
c'mon, rememeber,

my children and my future lies entirely on their hands!

right.
so cute.
them.

gee. enough of my nonsense.
i think XiaoPang is going crazy already.

i walk around him,
whispering
'aw, my houseman...'
'omg, they're here...!'
'aw, this one so cute.'
'this is beyond hope'
'aiyer, you see lah.... they left already.'

you see,
i am writing all these
so that your can share the miseries that XiaoPang is going through.
muahaha.

but its so nice working with him.
he's damn good.
definitely a good nurse,
and its CGH's lost for not signing him.
but nvm, i am better, so actually, it wasn't such a big lost for CGH lah.

hmm, tomorrow is afternoon shift,
and thats my 5pm slot.

oh God. (in the typical Sujan's accent)
a houseman smiled at me yesterday!
traumatised.

ok, enough of houseman nonsense.
(but really, a gd catch. my PH-prospective husband)

whoa.
yesterday was a really damn good day.
its the 25th!
always a good reason to shop, to eat, to binge, to celebrate, to party, to club, to cheer!
MUACK! love 25th.

and i am so so so in need of shopping.
God.
i've just got my shopping list written and edited.
thrice.
switching, adding, deleting items.

but when i finally hit the malls,
i buy them all!
even those taht weren't listed!
a trip to Guardian for an innocent Whitening Night lotion can get me to zap away another $50.

how i wish, my weight can be zapped away everything i buy also!
and i'll be anorexically thin i swear.

and i've got so many Anna Sui's item to buy.
if not, my room will be over crowded with Chanel.
and my devotion for Anna Sui will lose out.
no i can't, before my sister get that Inimitable mascara,
i must get my needies.

great, just another reason to shop!
whee!!

eek!
tomorrow is afternoon shift!
and its the Hungry Ghost Festive already!
damn, got to walk along the creepy corridor of mine at 9+.
thats scary enough.

but i am safe in the hospital!
cus i've got XiaoPang!
he looks like God of Forture!

what the hell!
i am walking with a God!
what's there to be afraid of!
and well, little secret here, he IS the God of Forture.

ok, i must be good this two months.
no late night clubbings....
no late night mahjong sessions....
no late night prata supper....

be good,
stay away from the dark!

something that my mum said scare the hell out of me.

i was sinfully enjoying on my bed when she was going down to burn the incense paper.
and she asked me along.
will you go?
i won't becus i don't want to be interrupte while sinfully enjoying myself!

so i didn't.

and she said.
'you are going to the hospital to work and you are still not going down with me!!'

then i didn't reply so she went down with the kids.
God. i am very sorry.
now then i know the fear.

chinese saying goes 'you'll not cry until you finally see the coffin'

how?

no no,
i am a good girl, a good nurse.
i never complain about patients at all ok.
i never tsk at any task assigned ok.
i never grumble at the workload ok.
i never show funny faces cus of the smell ok.
i am a good nurse ok.

ok, i am good.

oh, and its damn good working in the female ward lah.
its the time when doctors need you the most.
i mean, need me the most!

muahaha.
now i feel the importance of being a chaperone.
omg.
and student nurses are the doctors' best recommended chaperones.

they grab me.
yes, literary grab me and i am not suppose to be out of sight!
how awesome.

i am going to sleep now~
i have to wake up early tomorrow to bath.
becus the repairment is coming to repair my water pipe at 10am.
hell.
why do they work so early?
birds aren't even awake yet!

damn.
night all my sweeties, preets, hunks.

the world is really chocolate!

2006-07-24T18:27:00.000+08:00

OMG.

are you jealous?

open my frige and you'll see
tons and tons of chocolate.

say you're jealous!

muahaha.

all damn good stuff can.
chocolates all the way from Hokkaido.

omg.

love love love my cousins can!

i want Chocolate

2006-07-21T17:02:00.000+08:00

i am ugly, smelly, dirty.
right now i sitting in front of the desktop,
with the tv on,
feeling all disgusted by myself.

yucks.

i am so lazy.
i am no motivation to bath.
i need chocolate.

but yet, i cannot go down to the mama shop to buy it.
because i might give the two mama shop uncle heart attacks.

ugh.....

ok, today was suppose to be a good day.
was suppose to go clubbing with the girls.

and then, it was cancelled because only a few of them can make it.
so it was changed to a shopping trip instead.

and then, Eil had to go for a dinner with her family.
so, only left me and xinzi.

and was changed to K session with ralf.
great, still postive about the day.

and then ouyang didn't want to sing.

so.

was cancelled.

and ended up meeting for a dinner at 85.
hmm.

do i have a choice?
have to accept what was left for me...

so, my mood went mountain top HIGH,
to hell level 17 low....
not yet level 18, at least i get to go out.

from clubbing,
to shopping,
to K session
to dinner.

hmm.

since last thursday,
i've been spending my days at home.

lets see.
thursday, friday, sunday, monday, wednesday and friday.

SIX hell days! omg.
my mum should love me!

and i am going out with my mum tomorrow!

right, the only day that i'll be going out turns out to be with my mum.
so,
family is still the best.
can i say that?

SIGH.

i am really boring now.
i've got exactly nothing to do at home!
i know where everything is,
i know what lies at every corner of the house,
and its boring~

******

ok, yesterday went to school.
i was a good girl.
because i am sick of staying at home.
so the next best thing is to go school.

actually i went to school because i reckon that i'll be wanted
so i'd better be there.
and in the end,
my own mentor was (again) sick,
on MC. (she actually lives in the A&E of the hospital and owns an ambulance,
i SWEAR. in fact, my class can confirm that too.)

and then the fucking lecturer who wanted to 'book' me,
didn't ask for me.

so me and elyn left the school after our lectures (and changhow! the cutie boy)
and we made our way to Bugis
where Elyn had her eyebrow trimmed. (its time)

and then,
here comes the most infuriating happening.

that fucking lecturer who wanted to 'book' us called to ask us back.
it was so rush and such a turn off.
actually she wanted us to back to school the next day (which is today, i had no lesson)
so i die die also must go back yesterday!

******

ok, apparently, what happened was:
i was late for my re-test (on wed),
and my card was with Elyn (my card was never with me)

and the lecturer had to take attendance,
so all the cards have to be passed to the lecturer.
and Elyn thought i could make it in time,
so she pass my card to the lecturer too.

and because of communication error,
i thought there was a change in the venue,
and went to the wrong lecture theatre.
so i was damn late.

and so, the lecturer accused us ofattempting to ?cheat my attendance.
i seriously didn't know that.

and when i finally arrive at the lecture theatre,
i went up tot he lecturer and apologise for being late.
and she asked for my card.

of course it wasn't with me so i told her its in my bag.

and so, we were accused of erm,
?dishonest act.

fine.
dishonest because i lied that my card was in my bag.
and dishonest because Elyn tried to make the lecturer thought that i was there when i wasn't.

pretty reasonable eh?

right, no complaint about it, no sweat though i am bonded and they most probably will tell my God (CGH) cus its not my first dishonest act already.

why am i soo dishonest??
i lied about my weight, my height, my size, my property, my money, my everything.
gosh, how could i...
tsk tsk tsk.
bad candy, i should have melt and be engulfed by disgusting big red and black ants.

******

you know what?
something that my lecturers told me,
shocked me.
it'll shock you too.

i was told (3-4times)
that they were not concern abt me rebelling against the school rules like dishonesty.
what they really worried about is when i become a staff nurse,
and my integrity as a staff nurse.

they always ask me the same question:

'when you become a staff nurse, will you do the same thing if you gave the wrong medication?'

followed by:

'you know what will happen? you know how many nurses are in court case now?'

hmm.
i would just nod and nod and nod.

aren't you shock?
the first time i heard it was in the ward when i cheated about my time of arrival.
i was late but i wrote i was on time.
and the lecturer lectured me for like 1 hour for it??

gosh, it was actually not that big a deal isn't it?
omg.
who will actually lie about giving the wrong medication??
its a matter between life and death alright.

i am so traumatised that such a health practitioner exist!

so i feel that its very ridiculous.
and that well, the lecturers should be worrying about other more important stuff
than spending their time on their desk thinking about such impossible thing.

seriously, the old-missy-lecturers are very funny.
they are having so many scary conflicts.
like having war, betraying each other, being super hypocrites
and even
quarreling in front of students,
and bad mouthing each other to the students.

traumatised eh?
their average age was about
50?

and doing such secondary school stuff.
gosh.

now, shouldn't we students worry about their integrity too?
hmmmm.

******

hmm.
i'll be out tomorrow.
got lots of places to go tomorrow.

its my grandmother's death anniversary,
and we've got facial appointment,
and we're gonna watch the Pirates of the Carribean.

whoo!

Orlando Bloom!
how can i not watch him!
he's so charming.
i wish i can rape him! (as usual.)

but its real pathetic when you're single you know.
i've missed out so many movies!

Da Vinci Code, Superman Returns, Over the Hedge, X-Men III, Scary Movie 4,

erm.. so many so many..
too many to list them all out.
all of my friends have already watch them when i ask them out.
even though we have already promised to watch them together!

:(

ok, i am not going to complain anymore.
sit and wait then.

******

alright!
did you watch the Singapore Idol on Wednesday?

oh my God.
i swear Jonathan was cunning,
he was evil!
omg.

how could he!
he made me drool all over the living room!

aww i swear he is so clever.
just by taking his jacket off and dancing funnily
made me send hundred over votes instantly!

muahaha!
i swear i should have recorded it down.
omg.
i think he must have put some love potion on me.

muahahaha..
ok lah, i am so broke already where will still send hundred over of votes.
although i did send,
but its a number not measurable to my love for him.
so i am not saying it out.
only my dearest sister knows how many votes did i send.

muahahaha...

must vote for him next week ok?
must not let him be voted out ok?

please please.

my JonJon:

hehheh,
don't cry if you've missed his performance..
cus i have them!
muahahaha.

you need to watch it.
i repeat, you NEED TO.
if you don't, you suck.

if you don't, you might as well don't live.

but beware or you'll be captivated by him.
like me~

LOL.

but i very traumatised.
someone people actually commented that he looks like
Cavin Soh.

terribly traumatised.
how can that be.

well if you feel that too,
please don't tell me,
please don't tag at my tagboard saying that you agree that he looks like Cavin Soh.

i'll cry i tell you.
and i'll probably punch you straight in your face when i see you the next time.

so don't torture me.

anyway, he's really cute.

******

alright, i am going out for dinner already.
but i have to bath first.

hmmm.
no money, life sucks.

agree?

late night happiness.

2006-07-21T03:13:00.000+08:00

muahaha!
i don't know whats wrong with me!

muahaha!
muahaha!
muahaha!

i feel so happy now.
erm, nothing happen at all!

just me alone here,
blogging nonsense,
feeling happy.

just feel happy so i blog!

am i lame or lame or lame?

i swear nothing happen to me.
no hunks picked me up.
nothing.

heh, gues it must be the 2 servings of ice-cream i had earlier on!
its working now!
muahahaha.

muahahaha.
muahahaha....

gosh.
i am trying to go to sleep without smiling stupidly.

ok, night!
muahahaahahahahahha..
muahahahahahah.
muahahahahahaha.

Catch his wave!

2006-07-19T15:18:00.000+08:00

sorry, forgot to remind you that

TONIGHT THERE WILL BE SINGAPORE IDOL.

at 8pm if i am not wrong on Channel 5!

please remember to watch,
and vote for Jonathan.

and remind me to vote for him too!

enjoy.
he's the man.

he's my Singapore Idol.

SCREAM

2006-07-19T13:51:00.000+08:00

i am really really sad now.
really.

i want to talk.
but nobody wants to listen.

it is not PMS.
i swear its not.

this is different.
i feel like burning myself.
i feel like packing up my load

and just leave,
go away.

ugh.
i am really sad now.
really sad.

i am not throwing tantrum now.
i am not.
its real.

really happening.
and i want to shut down.
i mean, it doesn't matter isn't it.
nobody's gonna care.

maybe, maybe a chocolate will help.

thing is i don't know how to help myself.
i don't know how to handle it myself.
i really have no idea what to do.

i've been thinking.
listing out all the details,
planning my steps,
thinking hard about my support source,
where to find it,
gave up finding,
change my thinking,
change my view,
think using others' perspective,
toss it round and round,

but it all came back to square one.

******

ok.
today's lesson is at 6pm.
i still have lots of time.

i just want to make people happier.
people who hasn't been having a good time lately.

girls, dinner tonight had been changed to 7pm.
at prata shop.
pai seh. keep on changing.

final confirmation is 7pm at prata shop.
thank you!
have a nice time :)

anticipation.

2006-07-19T02:30:00.000+08:00

omg.
yea, its one week to my attachment!

HEEHEE.

now, its a step closer to my desire already.
oh c'mon.

houseman! here i come!

wait for my arrival yea babies?

my classmate just reminded me about my finance issue.
and if i fail my test today,
i'll have to forward module.
and CGH will not give me money anymore!

CRY FOR ME!
gosh, its my worse nightmare.

and it got my flame lit up again!
if i marry a doctor,
i'll live in harmony forever on.

i'll not need to care about anything.
and shop till i really drop!

cool.
and well, luck is on my side.

just one week.
i got to turn on my charm~
but not to those old old doctors yea.

you know what i want.
young charming potential

houseman

whoo.
my nurse uniform is already very short.
hmmm.
should be enough.

hehheh.

*houseman: an advanced student or graduate in medicine gaining supervised practical experience.
meaning doctor-to-be on attachment lah.

******

alright, tests are over.
except for the BCLS theory paper tmr at 6pm.
thats so late!

and i am finally meeting the girls for dinner tmr!
whaa, after so much effort and msgs,
i finally got them all stay free for tmr night.
just for the dinner.

muahaha!

very happy lah.
cus tmr everyone will be there.
like the first time!
first time all of them can make it!
no one to sacrifice anybody's presence.

yea, i am proud of it!
muahaha.

no matter where or what or how,
as long as we get together,
all will be good and happy.

don't you agree?

HURRAY!
and i mean it too when i say i miss them.

alright, i am going to sleep now.
guess what?

tmr no lesson!
only BCLS re-test at 6pm!
i can wake up like 330pm lo!

muahaha~

envy me

jealous of me

scold me

like i care~
no, i do,
so don't scold me!

muaha.
good night!

McFly- I'll Be Ok

2006-07-16T17:51:00.000+08:00

When everything is going wrong
And things are just a little strange
It's been so long now
You've forgotten how to smile.
And overhead the skies are clear
But it still seems to rain on you,
And your only friends all have
Better things to do.

Chorus:
When your down and lost
And you need a helping hand
When your down and lost
Along the way

Oh, just tell yourself
I, I'll be OK

Now things are only getting worse
And you need someone to take the blame
When your lover's gone
There's no-one to share the pain
Your sleeping with the TV on
And your lying in an empty bed
All the alcohol in the world
Could never help me to forget

Chorus:
When your down and lost
And you need a helping hand
When your down and lost
Along the way

Just try a little harder
Try your best to make it
Through the day

Oh just tell yourself
I, I'll be OK

You're not alone (you're not alone)
You're not alone (you're not alone)
You're not alone

Just tell yourself
I, I'll be OK
Oh, just tell yourself
I, I'll be OK
Won't you tell yourself

Chorus:
When your down and lost
And you need a helping hand
When your down and lost
Along the way

Try a little harder
Try your best to make it
Through the day

Oh, just tell yourself
I, I'll be OK
I, I'll be OK

I, I'll be OK

ain't this very me now?

loving my friends

2006-07-16T16:40:00.000+08:00

yea, meet up with wh and val yesterday for K.
its always nice meeting them up :)

friend, someone who is always taken for granted.
its hard to maintain and keep up with every single friend in your life.
but as long as you put in that little effort,
spare that little time for them,
send that short message to them,
show that willingness to meet up,

it is actually as easy as ABC.

isn't it so?

as a friend, i hate friends who don't put in effort,
show no commitment at all,
not willing to meet up at all,
even replying a message is impossible.

its hurting to have such a friend.
i swear.
it is very saddening.

i treat my friends like lovers.
i guess i love them too much.
like that of a boy/girl relationship.

i get jealous, get angry, feel sad, get hurt.
like how it happens in a relationship.
like how i treat my boyfriend when i wasn't given the correct attention.

i may be silly being like that,
but it is definitely better than friends who treat you like you don't exist.
like you're never their friend,
like you're just an acquaintance.
like you're some very bothersome people in their life, snatching their time,
making life difficult for them,
and give you the feeling that they wish that you didn't exist at all,
and would just stop bugging them.

hah, this is the worse type that deserve no friends.
and of course,
those that vanish when attached,
appear pathetically sweet-innocently when single again,
vanish again when attached or patched up.

isn't that crazy?

yea, this kind of friends drives me crazy.
having to forgive and forget,
again and again.

bear in mind that no one should be testing anyone's patience.

there shouldn't be any definition of how a friend should be.
like there will never be a definition of how a good boyfriend should be.
all these go by feelings.

and i am sure, friends and boyfriends should be people who you feel happy being with.
no stress, no tolerating, no eyes rolling.
just being comfortable and feels good.

for me, i'll be happy when my friends just put in little effort.
i don't demand much.

but well, such little effort seems to be impossible for some.
and it makes me sad allover again.

years of friendship.
sigh.

friendship isn't about whom you've known the longest,
who came first,
or who lasted the longest

its all about who came and never left.

heh, true isn't it?

so what if your friendship last forever when in actual fact,
it is not a friendship already.

friendship is not about you knowing her name, her address, her age and so on.
its about commitment, interaction, enthusiasm, love, participation, effort, misses and so on.
not a superficial thing.

don't say things like
'although we haven't meet up for a long time already, but you know that i am always thinking about you... blah blah blah'
all that nonsense.

come on lah, if you really miss your friend,
would you not fork out that little time just for a tea?

or at least when being invited, reply in a way to show that you're really trying to make time for it
or suggest another day.

not just saying that no, you can't.
or worse still, don't reply at all.

that's the most disappointing thing that can happen!

friends that who i know cares and loves me,
i will not be calculative about how much am i tolerating
because no matter how much, it will be worthwhile.

but for those who i know that really don't give a damn,
i'll not be calculating how much am i tolerating too
because,
she don't give a damn isn't it?
just contiune to do my job as a friend and i'll be clear of guiltiness.

at least, show that you're putting in that little effort and friends of yours will be smiling.

i am not blaming anyone or referring to anyone.
i am not that stupid to be posting a quarrel invitation here.
but i am just reminding people who are reading to cherish your friends.

never wait till they are needed then find them.
although its not too late,
but it just goes to show how much you really love your friends.

friends are not there for nothing,
you don't meet true friends anyhow on the street do you?
it takes a lot to blind up a friendship
and its always up to you to maintain it,

or crush it.

a friendship, takes 2 hands to clap.

never rely on your friend to maintain the friendship.
one hand doesn't make a sound at all.
eventually, the whole friendship would be gone.

so please, give that time,
put in the effort,
show that enthusiasm,
and you'll be rewarded with a long-lasting friendship.
what's better than that?

ok, i am going to watch my mum's show already.
have a nice sunday!
for those working real hard now,
like wt, wh, xin, oy.......
please jia you.

just like what i've said,

please remember to eat,
drink chicken essence,
have lots of chocolate,

and sleep also.

its nurse Lee's advice.
take it or regret it.

HAHA!

oh ya, xin is not working hard now, she's watching tv.

and people don't get paranoid about this posting.
if you're guilty about any of the followings,
do something,

its never too late!

raining saturday

2006-07-15T14:24:00.000+08:00

today should be a better day for me.
i am finally going out after two days of extreme boredom.

but unfortunately,

its raining.

its damn dampening.
why didn't it rain on Thursday or Friday?
why must it rain on the day that i am going out?

argh.
i woke up today, with a good hair day to start with.
its surprising how nice my hair seems this morning.
never before has it been so nice to me early in the morning!

but no matter how nice, it'll have to be destroy by the fucking rain drops.

right now, i am waiting for valval to come over.
she wants to use the computer.
and i am wondering what's taking her so long....

******

ok, my friend is selling jeans.
and saw this DiorHomme jeans which immediately reminds me of my cute cousin!
who is a full-time Dior-addict.

oh my God. and they are talking such a chim language.
and i am like stuck in the middle,
transmitting those chim words to both of them.

cool, so my cousin just bought a Dior Homme's destroyed jeans from Japan for $1k.
no sweat. no sweat.

he doens't even need to blink an eye for that.
omg, since when do i have such a rich cousin?!
his bestman's suit was also from Dior.

impressive eh?
oh my god.
$1k for a pair of jeans.

but its Dior's, definitely a good buy i guess.

words like: AW '03 bee parka
is definitely alien to none Dior-addict people like me.
he's one Dior-freak!

anyway, i am going already because val is finally here.
right,

enjoy your weekend!

dead.

2006-07-14T16:03:00.000+08:00

ok, i am very bored at now.

suppose to be meeting val, but we have no idea where to go.
you know she's so boyish,
she plays lan game and hang out with those lame guys.
i wonder what makes her a girl!
the only thing is that she puts on make up, and sings k.

and thats it.

but right now, i am so broke, i can't sing k.

ugh, what's life without money?
its so no-life.

and i am super bored at home and have got nothing to do online.
so i went to view people's testimonials.
which, made me even more upset.

damn it. what the fuck am i doing?!
argh.

you know what, actually, i feel more lazy than boring.
i am not a boo-boo who has got nowhere to go,
no one to accompany me.
i have ok.

just that well, i am lazy.
i am so lazy that i am still in exactly the same state that i woke up in this morning.
but i don't stink like those people in the train.

i feel so lazy.
i don't want to move at all.
i don't even want to eat.
feel sick of everything.
ugh.

you know what?
i think its because it has been a long time since i go for my attachment,
i've been having bad dreams about it.

not exactly nightmare.
but just a bit weird that i am dreaming about it.

i dreamt that i was changing an ah ma's diaper.
her shit was kind of orangy brown.
and soft.

and i had to change so many pairs of gloves because it keeps on getting so dirty with the shit.
and i wonder why am i dreaming about it.
grrr.

anyway, attachment is on the following week.
ward 37- surgical posting this time.
so erm, pray hard you won't get into some accident.
if not, you'll most likely be send to a surgical ward, and hopefully, ward 37 :)

muahaha. i am so bad.
anyway, the hungry ghost festival starts on the second day of my attachment.
very coincident indeed.

and it end two days after my second attachment.
very very lucky.

grr. i am going to die thinking about where to go.
argh.

i think i am going to sleep already.
my lil potato is sick today and she keeps on throwing tantrums.
and doing funny things like:

-hiding in the masterbed room's toilet facing the wall (like the Toshio in Ju-on)

-hiding in the storeroom

-staring at you from the corner of her eyes

hahaha! so funny can that lil potato!
omg, she's having a really bad mood and driving me and my sister crazy while laughing at the same time!
haha! but she's really cute.
so poor thing!

ain't she cute?
took this when she finally fall a sleep after all the tantrums and crying and screaming.
haha!

know you'll want to right click and save this picture right!
she's so cute lil potato.

cutie sweetpea, get well soon!

My Idol.

2006-07-14T01:24:00.000+08:00

Jonathan Leong!

gosh. he is ten times more mesmerising than my dearest chocolate!
he is hundred times more charming than my chocolate!
he is capable of hypnotising me with his voice which my chocolate can't!

he is my number 1 Singapore Idol.

never mind if you say he is not handsome, not good looking or even ugly.
it would just show that you belong to the handicapped society in Singapore.
cus you're either

deaf, or

blind,

or both.

you can't be serious about it.
he is so damn charming and attractive!

oh my God.
i owe Jonathan 1000 apologies.

i am so damn sorry.
really sorry Jonathan my dear.

i forgot to vote for you.
but rest assure that nothing of such will ever happen again.

i promise you i will vote at least 100 votes for you every week.

how can i let you go throught the fear of being voted out.
how can i let you suffer the humiliation of being in the lowest vote catergory.

i am truly sorry.

i can't believe that he was nearly voted out!
i was panicking like hell and Gurmit refuse to announce!
i swear i'll regret it like hell if he's out!

he has got to be the Singapore Idol.
he got to beat Paul Twohill (although he is damn cute! and i love him too!)

but well, one mountain can only has one tiger.
one of them will have to go.

and i hope it'll be Paul because, i simply can't resist Jonathan's charm.
sorry!

but Paul is indeed very cute.
he is so cute.
he has got youth.
and Jonathan don't have much left.

so Paul can wait.
Jonathan can't.

how i wish i can have him all to myself!
and i was so traumatised that he was one of them who got the lowest number of votes!
gosh.
i thought he would probably be the top!

damn, i am sorry but i'll vote next week.
i've forgotten all about it this week!
so guilty.

please people, vote for him, vote for him, vote for him.
the next Singapore Idol has got to be him.
i can never accept someone else being the Singapore Idol.
i can never accept Jonathan leaving the stage.

so please vote for him.
he is a fine man.
he's charming and he definitely can sing.
his voice can melt your heart for sure cus it melted mine.

jonathan jonathan jonathan...

******

ahhhhh.
i am so damn boring at home.
i've got such a long holiday!
no school today and tomorrow.

how shiok.
are you jealous?

but i get so fat at home and i hate it!
argh.

******

i guess my mood changes faster when i am alone at home.
i feel lonely even more when i am at home,
on my bed,
doing practically nothing.

i am so broke that the thought of shopping sends me straight to chronic depression.
i can't believe how broke i am!
i have got no more money and even negative.
gosh.
i should just die.

i can't live without money.
i just can't!

ok, i am having sucha boring life that i have nothing to blog about.
so, boring people leads boring life and do borin gthings like-
sleep.

i am off to sleep now.
actually i didn't even want to come online today.
just that you know, hoping that MSN will bw kind enough to brighten my day a little.
but i was awfully wrong.

lets just forget it.
tomorrow will be better!

i guess so.

by the way, i hate people who contradict themselves.
i seriously hate them.
and some people don't even know that they contradict themselves so muh,
that i just have to laugh at them.

ok, i am sleeping now.
use to feel that saying 'love ya' is so sweet.
but now, no more.

i feel so fake saying it.
because i don't love everybody.
muahaha.

right, good night people.
have more chocolate.
and you'll smile more.

My LONG weekend!

2006-07-13T17:41:00.000+08:00

YAHOOOOO!

gosh. i feel so damn great now.
i slept at 2.30am yesterday,
and woke up at 2.30pm today.

are you jealous?

gosh.
and i missed my tutorial.
i have a tutorial at 4pm.
and waking up at 2.30pm would means that i am fucking late already.

imagine i have to bath, get dressed, apply make-up, pack my bag,
and leave my house, by 3pm.
within 30mins?
its totally impossible.

so why the rush?

but still, i panicked when i got up.
and quickly dash into the toilet.

gees.

well, the girls had their assessment this morning!
and cool, on the same boat as me.

pat only passed infant CPR.
syidah and elyn both failed one-man CPR.

well, atleast i know i've got some fabulous company for my re-assessment next tuesday!
muahahaha.

hmm, i hat estaying at home with nothing to do.
i am now eating ice-cream.
my mum's favourite Rum Raisin.
i gotta finish it nevertheless.
what else can i do except for this?

heh.
alright, i going off.
my dad is coming home soon.
and if he found out that i am using computer again,
he'll kill me!

Reality

2006-07-13T02:20:00.000+08:00

OCTOBER BABY

-Loves to chat. ( i can't stop)
-Loves those who love them. (yea, so damn true, i hate people who hate me because they hate me for no reason.)
-Loves to takes things at the center.
-Inner and physical. (aww, beauty queen, definitely me)
-Lies but doesn't pretend. (im a good liar so to speak.)
-Gets angry often. (not true. i get angry all the time! muahah. joking joking.)
-Treats friends importantly. (most important element to me)
-Brave and fearless. (+ shameless)
-Always making friends. (new handsome hunks you mean? muahah!)
-Easily hurt but recovers easily. (yea, i can forget almost everything.)
-Daydreamer. (im a very fantasy person and presume tht i live in my fantasy.)
-Opinionated. (hah, thats the fact.)
-Does not care to control emotions. (erm, yea, i am always rolling-eyes around and everybody hates me!)
-Unpredictable. (of course. mood swing is my best friend!)
-Extremely smart, but definitely the hottest (aw, sucha sweet compliment.)

AND

-sexiest of them all. (hmm, and horniest.)

cool. this is thing is kind of true for me. seriously.
but well, thats not what everybody sees me as, because nobody knows me better than i am and assume what they saw, heard or gossiped about me!
but what to do when people just loves you hang you by their mouth all the time?

i am no celebrity, therefore i don't need to please anybody, especially people who are so much more worser than me, they deserve no respect.

haha! i am so happy now. like a huge load off my shoulder and i immediately went to the toilet to shit al the hell out after the test! two whole days of constipation, finally all released today. hella good.

i was so busy and tired!
i've got my practical assessment on BCLS- Basic Cardiac Life Support, on tuesday.
i got so stressed up you know.

but i manage to pass 4 out of 5!

hurray!
cheers!

i only failed the infant choking.
i erm, choke the baby to death. LOL.

thats obviously not true.
but i failed that lah. need to go for re-assessment next tuesday.
but nvm, i am so used to re-assessment.
since when i don't need to be re-assess?
LOL.

and then i've got BCLS theory paper today.
its damn stressful!
cus we can only get 5 questions wrong.
if more than 5, you'll fail.

damn.

but well, everything's over now!
and tomorrow's lesson is at 4pm!
cool.

i bet syidah, pat and elyn were all studying like mad now.
they are having their practical assessments tomorrow!
muahaha.

good luck girls.
just don't fart when doing CPR.

******

sometimes, i wish that i can have answers to my questions immediately.
without having to wait for it to happen.
some questions that i should know better than anyone, but yet, i have no idea about it.

like:am i happy now?
i don't know.

can you imagine how lousy a person i am?
my mind is constantly flooded with questions.
and it is really bad.

no body answers them.

hmmm, i am really tired although its only 1:47am.
gosh, i am really lousy.

well, been turning in sooo early for the past few days.
i mean i literally slept throught the both days.
and i thought the more you sleep, you more energetic you'll be.

but thats not true at all.
i am so fucking sleepy and lethargic in school and train.
i don't even want to go anywhere else other than these two place.
so don't be surprise if i cancel any of the meetings with any of you recently.
can't help it, i've been cursed!

oh, i forgot to mention about the innocent go-to-school date.
one word: mesmerising.
second word: hypnotising.

sorry for going so ga-ga over him.
all if you are hating me, i know.
but i just can't help it!

you know how flirting can get serious when not handled properly,
OR when the partner is way too good to miss.

and thats when playing is no longer simply playing.

damn, because it is never good to fall in love, have a crush, or get crushed.
is either people are torturing you, or you get tortured by disgusting people.

hmmm, i am pretty quiet now.
tired i guess.
good luck to everybody.

by the way, a news too good to be true:

please grab that Asience shampoo/conditional/treatment (best if all) at any Guardian, Watsons Passion Salon or NTUC.

it is damn fascinating good.
been using it for quite some time already, even before it hit the TV.
and good, results were shown after 2 washes.
true, i swear.

David Gan's recommendation can't be wrong.
although i have to admit that i hate Zhang Ziyi, but it is too good to miss it.

Please try it despite its kind of 'cheena' packaging.
its damn good.
doesn't smells as nice as me though.

oh another worthy product:

Sarah Jessica Parker's Lovely perfume.

if you've met me recently, you'll know that i am totally in love with it.
(i've probably forced everyone to sniff it.)

but its really good. really sweet.
not as sweet/girlish as Anna Sui's Secret Wish.

i no longer want that.
everybody has been aimming for that.
and if i buy it, its not outstanding enough.
i don't like to be too common.
i don't like to have things that people have.

and SJP's Lovely is beyondanything.
it is really very nice- feminine, sexy and a touch of sweetness.

nobody should miss it.
i swear i am getting one next month when i get my money.

damn, financial issue is stressing my out.
it is never enough to satisfy my desires.

aww.

right, good night.
have a nice day.

i am definitely missing my good life now.
pray for me.

MOS-loving it.

2006-07-10T02:55:00.000+08:00

WHOO!

im going crazy again.
had so much fun clubbing away!

gosh, i think i am so in love with it now.

happenings?

you want the answer?

nah~
just like every other time, no happening :(

MOS is a real big place.

first, we had a hard time looking for the location.
walking across and back of the river!

before we even dance, we're already soaked with our perspiration!
gosh.

then we got in!
yeah.

there were many rooms there- Retro, R&B, White Room blah blah blah.

of course we prefer R&B lah. its the best and most danceable.
MOS's house music was terrible. except for that cute trumpeter, other than him, there's no other reason why we should stay at the main dancefloor.

LOL.

i think if i am jobless, i'll work in MOS as locker room staff.
it is a fabulous job.

you can choose who you want to be kissed.
the locker boy had a perfect complexion though.
and he was one lucky boy to be kissed by a beauty like me.

and the locker girl can be kissed by hunks!
can you imagine how fabulous it is?
gosh.

ok, i didn't get drunk, not even tipsy.
but ouyang did.
she was so drunk that all she wanted to do was to sleep.

there were so much fun!
the R&B room was very squeezy. it was so damn squeezy that the girls were complaining non-stop about being touched. LOL.

not that i didn't get touched, i am voluptuous mind you.
just that i was enjoying it.
HAHAHA!

ok, i am not that cheap.
just that you know, thats the nature of clubbing i guess.
you should grab their balls back if you're not happy about being touched!
muahaha~

oh, and there were also the girls' friends, two guys, two girls, and dante who is a real good guy.
cool. its always best to go clubbing with adult people.
we got free beer and liquor!
and to go clubbing with one boy, he takes care of the girls well.
like ralphael and dante!

thats the best.

dancefloor was mad. so many people.
but we manage to squeeze in mins cus we got the people mesmerised.

i should really congratulate xin.
she finally got the gut to dance!
and i guess she really enjoy it.

oh! and a guy picked me up on the dancefloor!
totally traumatised.
but he did not ask: como se llama?

so i was a little disappointed.
hmm, but never mind, the main thing is i got picked up.

although i couldn't see him clearly, they said he was quite good looking.
he was too tall.
i could only see his chest!

damn, this is really bad. and i couldn't look up to his face because if i do so, my chin would hit his chest and my head would hit his chin.

and it'll be embarrassing.
so i can't help but couldn't look at him.

this is not the first time this happened.
when i went Zouk on xin's birthday, i couldn't see thomas's face too.
cus i was too short and i can only see his chest ;(

argh, they were too tall.

and after that, we send oy home, i mean to kaituck's house.
and we left for Mac's breakfast.

unfortunately, my heels strap gave up on me.
and i had to walk bare-footed.
damn, it was so ugly.

after that,we went home.
but it was already 7+ then :)

i was dead tired.
can you imagine how short i slept the day before?
gees.

sadly, this is the last fun i'll have.
next week will be the staring of exams.
afterthat will be attachments.

gosh, how terrible..
the next time i'll be clubing will most probably in late august with my animals.
its so long away!

ow man. this is not good :(

anyway, hope you girls enjoy it as much as me! LOL.
love all of you so much that i wish that we'll get married.
hahaha!

and happy birthday Eileen!
i love you babe.

My beloved sleep.

2006-07-07T23:57:00.000+08:00

i am tres tired!

imagine continuously two days sleeping for only 3 hours and having to do 1000 words essay on Chairman Mao Ze Dong and studying for the test after that and sleep for 2 hours and wake up for the test at 10 and go home get dress and head for town and finally clubbing till morning..

VOOM!

i'd lie flat on my bed.
i swear.

but i am loving it!
totally adores this busy life.

i hate it when i have nothing to do.
i'll feel very lonely.
and i hate. its disastrous for a single girl to feel lonely.
its the leading cause of depression!

right now, i am still doing on my essay on Chairman Mao. argh..
i totally forgot about what i've learnt in secondary! how could i!
its about 950 words.
been doing it since 4?
I AM GOING BLIND ALREADY.

but YEAH.
a few more fruits, and i'll get the bullshit out successfully!

yeah! tomorrow is girls' night out!
gees. all excited, hopefully.
all wearing new tops from Mango sale.
how despicable!
wonder how did they manage to grab those few.

tomorrow i'll be in my hotpink tube top.
wheee! i am so excited about it.

MY FAVOURITE COLOUR!
meaning i'll be super feeling good.
totally feel awesome throughout the night.
and sexy *

well, gotta end it here! i need to do my essay for my sweetpie Ivan.
cheers, i'll be seeing him tomorrow morning, gotta wear low cut for the test then :)

gees. i am so sick.
totally flower-crave.

erm, actually, more of chocolate-crave.
chocolate, infamous flavour.
yet i am craving for it sooo much now.

today was sporty.
i jogged to school.
LOL.

deadly impossible please.
i didn't know what to wear for a 2-hours-only-yet-bedok-to-yio-chu-kang thing.
i don't want to be spotted under dress.
yet, i feel tired over dressing.

its like 2 hours only!
so i wore my currently favourite FOX shorts. (its not short but too short for my lecturers)
and a Giordano v-neck.
and this awesome Adidas sneakers.

i know and totally understand that i am hideous today.
but whenever i look down and saw my sneakers, i immediately forgive myself.
its so nice that it shines. somehow.

LOL.

anyway i'll be going for 2 hours only and i'll be right back into my safe land Bedok.
but well, actually Bedok ain't that safe now.
because someone, a big demoraliser, is studying in Bedok..
(if you don't know, you don't need to know,if you do know, you know.)

although everybody says that she is ugly, next-door-Jane look.
but i think she looks, super.
one look and you know she's the sun-kissed, very Roxy style.
which i sincerely hate it.
and her tummy, you don't have to strip her to know that it's totally flat like an iron board.
which i cannot forgive, never forget.

hopefully, i'll never meet her at all. she sucks. i'll get so sour that my skin actually corrodes if i really do meet her.
i'll die man.

oh well, speaking of this morning, i blew up the whole thing.
i didn't actually blew it up, i merely fly his flight.
the minute i woke up, i regret it, immediately.

damn. how could i!
cause of my beauty sleep which isn't getting me any more beautier, i let go of my go-to-school-date which i have apparently been waiting like months for it!

i cannot forgive myself for this.
and he is definitely going to remember this.
not that he was offended..
it was just so rude of me.

how could i.

but well, its better not to go, than to appear in that 'sporty-ugly' outfit of mine, right?
totally true. he'll probably freak out.

but, :(
cravings~

totally undeniable.

and i have rejected his invitation again tonight. i am totally disappointing him and myself.
argh.
but well, i've already bet with syidah-

2 weeks.
2 weeks and he'll be gone.

everybody is actually anticipating it! traumatised!
gosh, Elyn just said i'd better not get emo-emo again after 2 weeks.
well, i just got so used to it already.

2 weeks, i'll be just fine.

but anything thats more than 2 weeks,
i can't guarantee anymore.

anyway, never mark my words.
i am happily changing!

erm, ok, its getting too long. i have to go and study now!
done! its 1025 words.
gees, so traumatised!
i am a writing genius i can't deny.

eat more fruits and you can bullshit like me :)

good night all the prettys and handsomes!

GEES. guess again!

who is going to have 'happening' tomorrow night?

cool.
if there is, on the other girls, i'll tell you full detail.
if its me, i'll probably spare you with the detail.

oh ya, tomorrow i'll be at MOS, come and ask me:

COMO SE LLAMA?

* impressive!
i'll kiss you dead on the dancefloor.
(again, unless you look beyond believe)

ok, maybe i'll use it if i really saw some to-die-for cuties.

feeling puky.

2006-07-07T01:45:00.000+08:00

i want to puke!
can i go toilet and dig out all the food that i swallowed just now!

i feel incredibly FAT now.

and i am at my desperate ends.
i have no idea what to wear tomorrow.

its worse enough that i have no clothes to wear.
now, in addition, i am suppose to be looking damn gorgeous tomorrow morning!

how can that be possible?

in the morning, i got:

stupid half opened eyes
dry, very dry lips
bad breath (usually i have my Werthes with me, thank God.)
strengthless limps
very ugly skin
badly done make up
very not-seasoned hair

so many.
and how can i look gorgeous tomorrow?
how you tell me.

especialy when i am so fat now.

big tummy girls are never pretty unless you're pregnant.

DAMN. I FEEL LIKE DYING SO I DON'T NEED TO GO TOMORROW!

ok, i am now doing research on Hitler.
just googled him.
he used to be a good singer in boys' choir.
hmmm~

its way beyond my imagination.

ok, i need my beauty sleep now. i swear.
i only slept for 4 hours yesterday.
and i guess evem lesser tonight since i got to wake up like one hour earlier to try on clothes?

gosh.

good night.
hopefully, good morning.

damn!

2006-07-06T01:37:00.000+08:00

you don't know how sick you make me feel.

what is happening.
stab me right through my heart and soul, i won't fight it.